Today she called me a BAD mummy all for the sake of a marshmellow =( Actually I just asked her 2 choose between a biscuit & a marshmellow instead of both junk food & she said: u r a BAD mummy, dont let me eat both!!!
Frankly speaking, I felt really sad cos the fact that she banged her nose straight into the floor & bled yesterday, already made me felt very useless, very incapable & then today, she have to hurt me like this.
Yet instead of giving in to her request of eating both her JUNKS, I lashed out at her. told her she could jolly well walk out of the house & go search for her "good" mummy if I am not good enough 4 her. Think I scared her. She started crying, told me she was sorry 4 upsetting me & that she dont mean it.
Seriously, I also wanna b a good mummy!!! Who dont want??? But whats the defination of being a good mummy?!?!
I remember when Kion was younger, family members like her 'kuku' liked asking her if she love daddy or mummy more. The 1st time I heard them asked, I was panicky. Worried that the ans might b Daddy. But she always ans them: both, Daddy & mummy.
If anyone tells me cos she's smart, thats a politically rite ans, I wont believe & I would say that this person doesnt have a child cos when this qns was 1st posed to her, she was less than 2yrs old. A less than 2yrs old child will not know what is a politically correct ans.
Anyway, at that time, I was always happy with her ans. Nowadays, I somehow feels that 1 day, the ans to this qns will b narrowed down to: Daddy....
Cos everything that she wants, mummy will say: NO!!!
Soon she will feel that mummy is no fun, mayb even a hindrance =p
Of cos, I can only hope for the better, learn to let go n pull back when needed.... But life, it's always easier said than done =p
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Yes, I'm 29yrs old now =p
My birthday just ended, withou a romantic dinner with Hubs, without flowers to surprise me, but with lots of love from family & friends that touches me deeply =)
Actually y does people seems to b so happy on their birthday? Dont they know that on the day they were borned, hrs b4 they came 2 earth, their mummies were panicking, with fear of the delivery =p
At least that was how I felt when I was being pushed into the room for caeserean... & it doesnt end there. I remembered the pain I felt when I was awake, felt like bursting in tears but controlled cos I saw mummy rite in front of me & didnt want her to get worried.
Anyway, was super touched by small gestures from my dear friends, 2 chocolate cakes =p presents & lots of love!!! I am so blessed!!! Mayb that's the reason y i'm putting on weight =p
Actually y does people seems to b so happy on their birthday? Dont they know that on the day they were borned, hrs b4 they came 2 earth, their mummies were panicking, with fear of the delivery =p
At least that was how I felt when I was being pushed into the room for caeserean... & it doesnt end there. I remembered the pain I felt when I was awake, felt like bursting in tears but controlled cos I saw mummy rite in front of me & didnt want her to get worried.
Anyway, was super touched by small gestures from my dear friends, 2 chocolate cakes =p presents & lots of love!!! I am so blessed!!! Mayb that's the reason y i'm putting on weight =p
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Goodbye Polo, Welcome CLK.....
Gonna say goodbye to my Polo tonight, feels alittle sad.... mayb cos its my 1st car, the first car that is totally mine. Although I know I'm doing an upgrade, cant help feeling a tinge of sadness.
The feelings were the same like when we first sold our love nest... Although I know that we were gonna have a better place, I cant help feeling kind of upset =(
Oh & yes, gonna record this down, I hit a kerb & got my tyre busted this afternoon. I was just turning out from my place, driving on a straight road & suddenly "BANG"!!! I felt a hugh impact on the car, which sent me panicking =p
Cos I'm going to hand in my car tmr & the dealer said he's taking my car in @ such high price cos it's accident free =p
I quickly drove off 2 a nearby HDB carpark 2 check on Kion & my car, praying that I didnt hurt the bumper etc. Thank God, there really wasn't any major damage to the car except for a BIG hole on the tyre. No wonder I felt the alignment not right when I was driving.
Kion was also fine, except for getting a shock. Luckily Gail came 2 pick her up while I continued waiting for the mechanic 2 come help me change the tyre. Got to go to the workshop early in the morning 2 replace new tyre then hand the car to the dealer at night, in exchange for my CLK!!! Totally in love with it but still cannot sink into reality yet =p
Seriously, I thank Kelvin 4 everything. Told him last night when we signed the contract for the CLK: Dear, everytime u get extra cents, u spent it on either Kion or me. So I should trust that u r a faithful man with no other women outside ya???
Lol, he of cos didnt ans me more than just a : crazy huh u???
Hmmm... Dear Hubby, tk u so much for the advance Bday present.
Oh & yes, cant wait 2 fly off to B.k.k on Friday morning =p
Guess I still the old Jojo, who loves cheap stuffs, bargaining, & shopping @B.K.K =p
The feelings were the same like when we first sold our love nest... Although I know that we were gonna have a better place, I cant help feeling kind of upset =(
Oh & yes, gonna record this down, I hit a kerb & got my tyre busted this afternoon. I was just turning out from my place, driving on a straight road & suddenly "BANG"!!! I felt a hugh impact on the car, which sent me panicking =p
Cos I'm going to hand in my car tmr & the dealer said he's taking my car in @ such high price cos it's accident free =p
I quickly drove off 2 a nearby HDB carpark 2 check on Kion & my car, praying that I didnt hurt the bumper etc. Thank God, there really wasn't any major damage to the car except for a BIG hole on the tyre. No wonder I felt the alignment not right when I was driving.
Kion was also fine, except for getting a shock. Luckily Gail came 2 pick her up while I continued waiting for the mechanic 2 come help me change the tyre. Got to go to the workshop early in the morning 2 replace new tyre then hand the car to the dealer at night, in exchange for my CLK!!! Totally in love with it but still cannot sink into reality yet =p
Seriously, I thank Kelvin 4 everything. Told him last night when we signed the contract for the CLK: Dear, everytime u get extra cents, u spent it on either Kion or me. So I should trust that u r a faithful man with no other women outside ya???
Lol, he of cos didnt ans me more than just a : crazy huh u???
Hmmm... Dear Hubby, tk u so much for the advance Bday present.
Oh & yes, cant wait 2 fly off to B.k.k on Friday morning =p
Guess I still the old Jojo, who loves cheap stuffs, bargaining, & shopping @B.K.K =p
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy New Year, Its 2012 now!!!
OMG!!! time flies, & flew extremely fast for the past 3 yrs... Or mayb issit bcos I kind of realized how fast time flies only after I had my little darling =p
Anyway, am seriously wondering where did the past 36mths went to?!?!?! AAArrrggghhh, hate it, seriously hates it =(
Spotting more strands of white hair growing on head, dark circles on eyes, & even puffy eye-bags on lower lid of eyes =( Think sagging breasts will b up next =p
Anyway, told myself I'm gonna learn to cherish life & the people ard me more! Gonna b more caring, more patient & more loving to all my family & friends =)
I wanna do it & gonna do it =)
In the mean time, also strive hard to b a BETTER Wife, BETTER Mother & a BETTER Daughter. I know I want & I know I can =)
Seriously, with sooo many sad news which took place in yr 2011, I am no longer keen in making resolution of losing weight etc. Life is too short to let me b bothered abt all these nonsense =p Although I still wish I had a 34'25'34 figure..... Lol
Anyway, am seriously wondering where did the past 36mths went to?!?!?! AAArrrggghhh, hate it, seriously hates it =(
Spotting more strands of white hair growing on head, dark circles on eyes, & even puffy eye-bags on lower lid of eyes =( Think sagging breasts will b up next =p
Anyway, told myself I'm gonna learn to cherish life & the people ard me more! Gonna b more caring, more patient & more loving to all my family & friends =)
I wanna do it & gonna do it =)
In the mean time, also strive hard to b a BETTER Wife, BETTER Mother & a BETTER Daughter. I know I want & I know I can =)
Seriously, with sooo many sad news which took place in yr 2011, I am no longer keen in making resolution of losing weight etc. Life is too short to let me b bothered abt all these nonsense =p Although I still wish I had a 34'25'34 figure..... Lol
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