Wednesday, October 27, 2010

It's nice 2 meetup with old friends =)

Heheheee... yup, yup, I actually found time 2 meetup with an old friend of mine today, even when Nina is no longer helping me out=p I guess it all depends on how u manages ur time =)

Seriously, time flies damn fast.... b4 I ever knew it, Huimin is already happily married & a mother of 2 =) Yet the memories of me & her, were say 15yrs ago??? with me being a plump gal(I'm still plump now) so maybe I should say, with me being a FAT gal, trying very hard 2 pass my 'NAFA' 1.6km running test, & she, already completed hers, running side by side wif me, encouraging me 2 finish mine without stopping (I wonder if she still remember)....

Hmmm... initially I was a bit nervous b4 meeting cos although we did chat on msm & FB, it is still a fact tat we had lost touch 4 the past 15 yrs.

Luckily things turned out well... She brought Nn along & me, of cos brought Kion along too=) Although I always tot tat I'm a person without much fate with children, I was of cos happy 2 see tat Nn wasn't turned off by me n instead, had cheekily tempted me with stuffs she was holding b4 grabbing them away from me whenever I wanna take them from her =p

Frankly speaking, Huimin hasn't changed much since I last saw her 15yrs back....Anyway, I did enjoyed our dim sum at 'imperial treasure' today, I think they serves the best carrot cake=p

Monday, October 25, 2010

Haiz, the goldfishes r back again.....

YES, Daddy, Kelvin & Kion went 2 one of the fish farm in pasir ris yesterday evening & came back with not only 3 bigger size goldfishes, but also with a est.2ft tank n stand =(((

Ok, its not that I hate keeping fishes, but y find trouble 4 urself when so many attempts 2 keep them alive previously had failed??? & now, with an even bigger tank, dont they knows tat it eats up the space in my living room =(

I know i know, tat 2ft isnt exactly big, but I really wan my house 2 b as spacious as possible, tat's y I even do away with the coffee table. Anyway, I told Kelvin tat if he's really tat interested in rearing fishes, we should get a built-in fish tank 2 the wall, or mayb have the fish tank built-in 2 our divider, think it would look fabulous=)

For the past 2wks, Kion had been enjoying cutting a lot, as long as there r lines drawn on any pieces of paper, b it straight or curve lines, she cuts almost everything up with her pair of small pink scissors & she cuts really well..... & this in turn made the house very messy cos everything when she sleeps, I would clear up all the tiny pieces of paper on the floor, yet everytime she wakes up, she would continue with her cutting spree & she really loves cutting up all papers till they become real tiny. Today my hand fingers got in between the scissor's blade when Kion was abt 2 put down her scissor. Kion, didnt even look 2 see y her scissors couldnt be close together, instead, used more strength 2 squeeze the handles of the scissors 2 close them, cut my fingers... Luckily she doesnt have much strength & the blades werent sharp, but still, I pretended 2 b in pain & guess what, she did quickly let go of the scissor n came straight 2 me 2 check if my fingers were alright but then after checking checking, she merely said "nevermind, nevermind, not painful ok"..... HEhehee.....

Btw, Kion knew how 2 use a new word today=) I told her that she could only watch video in my room every sunday since last week, but she didnt knew what 'every' sundays mean, n actually asked me if she could watch video in my room all the 'sundays'. But just now, b4 gg 2 bed, she actually asked if she could watch video today n I said no,cos today is not 'sunday', she actually said:" I can watch video only on every sunday?" Hehehee, beaming as a proud mummy again=)

Anyway, I realized that for the past 3 days, Kion had been using sentences like " R u happy, mummy", "mummy, y u not happy"(whenever she caught me frowning) "i want 2 make u happy".... So sweet rite, but I'm even sweeter cos everytime she asked me whether I'm happy, I would tell her that Im happy as long as she's happy=p

I really love the process of watching her grow up by my side day by day, but somehow, sometimes I get a little selfish & secretly wishes that she can always stay so small & cute while I always stay so young, so that I can forever look after her, have her by my side, every single day =)

Monday, October 18, 2010

I am really a CHEAPO!!!

Hahahaa... yup, I couldnt agree lesser 2 this self-made statement of being a CHEAPO =) Well, y do I say so??? Cos it has been a few months since I last won something from a lucky draw then last thur after opening the mail box, I realized that I had won a set of 3M organizers, good enough 2 make me happy although I dont even know if I need them....

I wonder if Winnie remembered her frequent supermarket trips with me when she was young? Infact she said something which left a huge impact on me, till today, that I realized my kind of trying 2 be thrifty actions might b wrong....

Think it could have been as long as 10yrs ago, at that time, Mummy was always working late, so Winnie & I were always together, being 15yrs her senior, it seems like it was natural 4 me 2 take good care of her since Mummy wasn't always available. I remembered always bringing Winnie 2 the supermarket 2 buy food 4 our breakfast & household items, she, would always ask 4 yoghurts & Cheese which had nice packaging.... Me, being a mass comm student at that time, strongly felt that paying 4 packaging is a stupid thing 2 do, & would always choose a diff brand, usually the brand which was on promo tat week, so that it would b a good buy=)

This action of mine went on 4 quite awhile, till 1 day, out of no where, Winnie suddenly said:" Jiejie, is it bcos we r quite poor that's y u always ask me 2 buy things that r on offer, cos Cleon(Winnie's friend) dont have 2 do so u know"? Stunned by her words, I remembered trying 2 explain things 2 Winnie, but now, I really cant recall what did I said.

At that point of time, I seriously did did some self reflection as I tot my actions might have caused Winnie 2 feel inferior when with friends & I really didnt want her 2 feel so. I forgotten later on how did I handle the situation, but Y do I say that I'm a CHEAPO, cos till now, I'm still buying alt brand if they r offering a good discount, still checking the total savings on my groceries shopping reciepts & feel real happy if the savings were huge, still filling up & sending out lucky draw coupons in magazines, & b really glad 2 win something, even though sometimes, the prizes won were not used at all, eg: the Nina Ricci perfume I won beginning of this yr, is still not opened, sitting nicely in my bathroom cabinet.

Hahahaa, I know at this point of time, many of my friends would find it unbeliveable, but I'm serious, this is me, and I will always b me, regardless of how comfortably my lifestyle might b now, compared 2 the past. Maybe this is what they mean when pple says a leopard never changes its spot=p

Oh yah, after talking so much abt myself, I almost 4got 2 update the status of Kion's goldfishes... Well, sad 2 say, all 3 of them died as well, 1 after the other, since last wed. The good news is, Kelvin finally agree not 2 buy anymore goldfishes 4 Kion, so both father & daughter can just concentrate on feeding the 9 kois in the water feature at our planter now....

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Hmmmm... A little update=)

Slightly less than 3 more months & it's gonna be Kion's birthday again... See how time flies, there seems 2 be more & more strands of white hair growing from my head=(

Quick update, at 33 months, she knows

1)how 2 read books with 1 sentence in every page, but of cos, its thru memorizing & not thru recognizing of words. (I had been bring her to the library every alt week, hoping that it helps her 2 develop an interest in reading as she grow older)

2)understands the concept of 'borrowing' & 'returning' books from the library, & difference between a library & a bookshop.

3)how 2 spell "sweet"... hehehee, of cos its due 2 rewarding her with sweets that she is eager 2 learn 2 spell.

4)how 2 read 1-10 in Mandarin, & simple mandarin words, eg:swing

5)how 2 wear her socks correctly by herself =)(I taught her just once, hehe, so proud of myself=))


Anyway, all of Kion's balloon gold fishes died again, last 1 died on sat morning, so Kelvin went 2 buy another breed of gold fishes home, 3 again, I wonder if this time round, would they survive...

I also met up with the guys from Chong's clinic last nite at Dempsey, at this place called tawandang brewery for dinner, and had quite a nice time. It is always good 2 catch up with old friends, & I hope that I can have the time 2 do so more often in future =p ( Many tks 2 Mummy & Winnie 4 staying over at my place 4 dinner last nite, so that I could go 4 the gathering.)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Deeply Hurt!!! (But maybe its time 2 do some self-reflection)

Yup, just when u think that things r going extremely well now, u suddenly receive a bombshell=( Isn't this kind of scenerio only found in T.V dramas??? Y is it happening 2 me?

Anyway, it all happened yesterday. The day was fun & happy 4 Kion but who would have tot that 20mins b4 leaving, Mummy spoke 2 me & our conversation went like this, Mummy:" Jo, Kion asked if she could stay over 4 the nite cos she said "Grandma, I like my house but sometimes Mummy scold me, she very fierce, I very sad.".... Grandma:" how about ur Daddy?" Kion:" Daddy also fierce, sometimes...".Mummy said that by then, Kion's eyes were all red & fighting back tears. Grandma:" Then y is ur Mummy so fierce 2 u? Y does she want 2 scold u?" Kion:" Grandma, bcos cometimes I very naughty so my Mummy angry..." Of cos, we could all figure out what Grandma replied next.

My heart seemed 2 be pierced by I dunno wat sharp object, but the feeling was really unbearable. Haven't things been really good recently as I no longer threatened 2 buy a cane home except tat I did used a thick wooden stick 2 hit her palm thrice one morning cos she was daring me 2 do it=(

I have even gave up forcing her 2 brush her teeths herself every morning, and had instead been brushing her teeth 4 her every morning once I managed 2 get her in2 the bathroom.... I admit that I do sometimes raise my voice at Kion, especially when she pretend not 2 hear me (mayb cos she's abit more timid, or mayb cos she sees me as her only care-taker, that's y she feels hurt when I raises my voice at her.)

Seriously, I do wonder now if she's feeling hurt or me feeling deeply tramatised by what she told Mummy cos since last nite, I seems 2 b carrying a heavy heart with me, till now, I wonder what is wrong, y does my heart suddenly weigh so much???

Haven't Kion been giving me so many kisses & hugs recently whenever we were together?? & all these while when I tot she had been so happy when we were together, she might not had been at all..... I am seriously doubting my ability 2 be a good mother, it seems like although I have been trying my best 2 use rewards instead of threatening of punishments, adding more "Please" in my speech when asking her 2 do something, swopping all the "can & could" with "will & would", I am still failing....=(((

Arrrgggggg..... Kion, do u know that ur words 2 Grandma had hurt Mummy a great deal??? =(