DSLR, yes or no???

Omg, ya... After 1yr of getting my Panasonic TZ7, I'm thinking abt getting a DSLR again =(
This time round, it's all bcos of the influence of Ainsley's pic... She took really nice pics of Kion with her Canon EOS550d? & I'm beginning 2 fall in love with it.

Ok ok, I didnt forget the reasons of y I abundoned the ideas of getting a DSLR a year ago... I was really very keen in getting one at that time, especially when Daddy also strongly agree that I should get one (I think cos he misses his Canon EOS, negative type, dunno what model,).

Yet after listing down the pros & cons, I finally decided on the Panansonic TZ7, a not bad 'point & shoot" camera, with full HD recording =) I'm happy with the result I got for the pics I took for the past 1 year, yet I secretly hoped that my Panansonic can have a faster shutter speed?? & gives better quality night shots.

Frankly speaking, a camera will never be as good as a video-cam when u take video, therefore I ended up with my sony view-cam CX550 6mths ago. the Vcam gives very good quality video & I'm very glad with my purchase except for the fact that I now, have 2 carry 2 equipments everytime I go for my holidays...

Now that I am once again thinking of a DSLR, it means extra weight 2 carry again should I buy it, and not 2 mention, the lens, & the costs of the lens involves if I should invest in a DSLR =(

Arrghh... Headache!!! Anyway, if I'm getting 1, should get real quick, like what Ainsley said, quickly buy & get myself used 2 the functions so that I can bring it 2 Tokyo with me in Jan 2 take beautiful pics of Kion =)

Japan trip all settled!!! =)

Yipee, we r flying off to Japan on the 8th Jan 2010 to celebrate our Birthdays =) Tickets & hotels have been booked & this time round, mummy would b flying with us too.

I'm happy cos I remembered promising her tat I would bring her to Japan one day, & this day is finally arriving. Just hope that she wont be too tired cos there's gonna b lots of walking & I know her style, always wanna carry Kion in her arms....

It's gonna b my 1st time to Japan F&E, hope there wont b any major hiccups... hehehee, I'm gonna drink plenty of Fancl there cos its way toooo cheap in Japan =p hope I'll b back with glowing complexion.

Another meet-up with Ainsley for Dim Sum, yum yum!!!

We met-up again this afternoon, sorry Huiyi & friends as I really got no time for the gathering organized for this evening, Ainsley & I decided 2 meet up @T1 again for lunch, so that I could get some of the Tokyo info from her =)

Hmmmm... this time round, there were Winnie, Kion, Phoebe & Rianne joining us. Kion seems to like Phoebe alot, they were sitting next to each other, colouring & drawing together, while Winnie, maybe too grown up already, doesn't seems to be able to blend in with them.... She sat beside me & just ate whatever I put on her plate=p

As for Nn, maybe she didnt sleep enough, dunno whether would she b like Kion when she grow older, hates to sleep, as her eyes does looks tired although she seems energetic...

Anyway, Kion enjoyed herself this afternoon, telling me that she would want to go for lunch with "Phoebe Jiejie" again =) & me??? Of cos, am more than happy to meet-up with my long long ago friend ^_^

This year's Christmas = super busy

Yes, super busy + super tired cos there are so many presents to prepare....

We r hosting the X'mas eve dinner with my family as Kelvin's drinking khakis would be away... Poor Hubby, last year we went on holidays during X'mas therefore no count down party for him, then this year, drinking mates going on holidays during X'mas, again no count down party... Hehehee...

Anyway, as family members r coming on X'mas eve, we decided 2 get presents for all the kids. Of cos, we already bought Kion her X'mas present, the dog which has sensor & on leash, so that u can bring it for a walk, & it's well hidden in the store. We decided to hide it from her so that she wouldn't open it till X'mas =) Anyway, I dont no y is this toy dog sooo EX, I mean $99.90(after 30% discount) for a toy dog??? I heard the man standing beside me, telling his wife "I definitely won't buy it, not worth buying" while Kelvin & I happily choosed 1 & made our way to the cashier... Can't help laughing @myself as a part of me does feels that what the man said is right, but a part of me just wanted 2 be stupid as I could visualise the happiness on Kion's face when she unwrap her gift =)

Actually, christmas shopping is almost done except for some small details which I should have it settled soon, maybe by tomorrow....Oh & did I mentioned that I even ordered our log cake from 'The Patissier' =) I love their cakes, yum yum!!!

Kion's Graduation Day @MGS (11-12-2010)

YES, Kion graduated!!! sounds funny rite, I mean she is just 2yrs old...=) I can't even remember how old was I when I attended YMCA @stevens rd & the only performance I remembered doing was when I was in Kindergarten, & it ended up with me crying on stage... yet my brave little princess, went on stage & danced like a star (in my eyes)....

So Kion graduated from "bright starts 1" and performed on stage LIVE today=)

Although I had 2 admit that I did felt quite upset initially as Kion was blocked by the taller children & I couldnt get a clear video of her performing. Yet I feel so proud looking at how well she had done, remembering all her dance steps on stage=)

As this is gonna b Kion's last year in WeeCare, I cant help but feels a bit sad... The teachers there are nice, always showering Kion with love...
Thinking back, it's only abt 1.5yrs spent @ WeeCare, but dunno y, the tot of leaving, does makes me feel sad. I think Kion & I r gonna miss teacher Bianca, teacher jean etc etc...

Frankly speaking, I dunno if I had made a right decision to withdraw Kion from WeeCare, but since this is what she wanted, to be with Kyra & Giselle, & also what I wanted, to go to a school with a longer curriculam hours, Y not try it out, it may just work out fine, who knows right???

Anyway, how bad can the worst scenario be? probably had 2 beg Vannessa & I'ling to take Kion back, or just wait till yr2012, to enrol Kion into 'School house by the bay' =p

As 4 now, hope Kion enjoys her holiday program with her Teachers @WeeCare =)

Another trip 2 Compass Point all in the name of Strawberry Shortcake!

We went 2 Compasspt again on a Sunday(28-11-2010) morning to send Mummy 2 work & we actually decided 2 go united square after dropping Mummy off as they were having a 'meet & greet" session with Barney at U. S. But upon reaching C.P, Kion changed her mind, insist on staying @C.P 2 wait for the Strawberry Shortcake 'meet & greet' session @1pm.

As we had just seen Strawberry Shortcake @C.P a few days ago, I didnt think it would b fun 2 see Strawberry so soon again. But as we didnt managed 2 get the 'pass' which were only distributed 2 the first 30paxs daily, last tuesday, we decided that we would Q earlier this time, 2 get the 'pass' so that Kion could go take photos with strawberry & friends on stage.

Trying 2 get the pass was tiring cos it wasnt that easy 2 be the first 30paxs. I remembered last tuesday, we reached C.P @1215, straight aways after Kion's lesson. We wanted 2 have lunch b4 Q-ing for the show but upon seeing that there was a long Q formed already, we decided 2 skip lunch & went on to follow the Q. We q-ed 45mins 2 watch a 20mins show and then only realized after the show that only the 1st 30paxs who had got a pass, can take close up photos with strawberry & her friends on stage.
Kion, was of cos very disappointed =(

Determined not 2 let Kion down this time round, Kelvin decided that he should get 2 the Q as early as the sight of a Q is seen. So right after having a bowl of noodles @ the foodcourt, Kelvin proceeded 2 the Q & he was actually already the 5th or 6th in line. Haiz, that's the thing parents would do for their kids...
Anyway, am glad that Kion enjoyed herself throughout the 30mins =)

Kion can write number "2"!!!

YES, yes, yes!!! Kion wrote '2' today & it was done all without my supervision =) Ok,ok, so dumb dumb Winnie is nagging now as she thinks that writing number '2' is NO BIG Deal 2 a 2yrs old....(Winnie is sleeping over @ my place & taking over of my computer, dont even wanna give me some time 2 post on my blog=()

Well, I'm glad cos it all started abt 3mths ago when Kion started taking an interest in doing her Shichida's homework, always asking 4 more 2 do, even though Teacher Ambiga said:'1 worksheet a day'. Actually, she isnt all the while like this, I dont know y also tat she suddenly developed an interest in doing "homework".... Since then, I bot a few "trace the dotted line" books 4 her 2 do but I realized that 4 the longest time, no matter how I asked her 2 write '2', she just cant, in fact whatever number I asked her 2 write free-hand, she could only write "3", then suddenly today, when I was looking @ what she was doing @ her table, I saw her writing "2" =)

Hehehee... so now, I conclude that the numbers & letters she could write independently @34mth are

1) 1
2) 2
3) 3
4) 0
5) 6 ( but more like a lollipop placed upsize down)

and "A" "B" "E" "H" "J" "O" "T".

Kion can by now also spell few words like

1) Kion Chew ( 4 quite awhile she only knew Kion)
2) Happy
3) Sweet
4) Key
5) Dog
6) Jojo
7) Kite
8) Apple

I know from these signs that she is growing up & her motor skills & getting better. The list of numbers & letters she can write is gonna get longer & longer soon, which means that the time 4 her to be getting academic works r soon 2 come. Hmmmm, Kion u better play hard & enjoy ur childhood now =p

Hehehee.... feeling sooooo happy, although I known of other kids who had by 30mths, can write 1-50, spells more than a dozen words etc, I'm not gonna let all these take away my daughter's moment of glory. I'm proud of Kion for her small achievements & I'm gonna shower her with praises 2 show her how much I appreciate her putting in efforts 2 learn 2 write =)

Dated: 28-11-2010

A funny 30mins session @ ZhiYing

Hehehee... I brought Kion 2 a chinese enrichment class called Zhiying today 4 a 30mins 1-1 demo conducted by the teachers there & of cos, I didnt told her that we were going 2 a Chinese enrichment school, instead I told her that we were going 2 a music school where the teachers teaches children new songs 2 sing along, & looking @ how Kion conversed with the Mandarin Teacher during the demo, made me laughed all the way home =)Actually, I should have been worried, but the scenerio was just so funny & even if she sucks @mandarin, come on she's only 2yrs old, I'm sure she would be able 2 catch up soon....

During e 30mins, the teacher brought out 3 A4 size flashcards, one side with pics & words while the other side with only words. The teacher told me 2 look while she asked Kion what the pictures on the 3 cards were. Kion answered all 3 correctly except that she answered all in english. And when teacher asked her 2 repeat after her in mandarin, I heard a english accent mandarin, funny pronouciation of words.... This, I tot was ok, cos it means that Kion actually understood most of what the teacher was talking abt. It was only @later part, when the teacher asked Kion 2 pick up diff colours crayons from a basket & Kion only got 2 correct, that I realized she may be really quite poor in her MT.

Anyway, after 30mins, Kion walked out of the class still not really able 2 memorize the names of the 3 fruits shown in the flashcards in chinese, but asked me instead:

Mummy, y is this school so funny? just come in 2 learn the names of the fruits, colour the strawberries, play lego 4 awhile then time 2 go home already??? Is it like that everyday?

Hmmm.... I dunno if I'll sign her up for classes here, but I do know that both mother & daughter had a fun 30mins @Zhiying today =)

Decision, decision, desicion....

Yup, there r always so many decisions 2 be made, especially after being a mother, it seems like I can no longer sit & wait 4 things 2 happen, 4 pple 2 help me decide what I should do next cos whatever moves I make, its no longer just about myself, instead it is all abt my little darling, KION CHEW!!!

Ok, ok, so mayb some would say that I'm just being 'kiasu' that's y I'm facing so much decision making problems but hey, I did told myself b4 Kion was born, that I dont wanna become a 'kiasu' mum, who forces her child 2 learn too much & ended up without a happy childhood. It really isn't my fault, blame it on the society if u want cos I witnessed everything myself, even since Kion attended Shichida when she was 14 months, I saw how fast & capable some children were at recognizing letters & numbers. It wasn't these children who were stressing me that Kion wasn't learning fast enough, but it was simply the fact that I saw her being very upset whenever there were 'number recognition' games being played in class as she knew it, the fact, that she doesnt recognises the numbers & always turned her head away from Teacher Ambiga.....=( I began pushing her twice as hard 2 learn numbers not bcos I wanted 2 prove my child's ability, but it's simply cos I wanted Kion 2 play the games involving numbers happily like all of her other friends in class.

Then came 18months, as she began attending playgroup at WeeCare, I realized that she enjoys going there & makes an effort 2 wake up early every tuesday, just 2 go play at her 'ball ball school'. She didnt needed me 2 wake her up, Kelvin just have 2 whisper at her ears "ball ball school, waiting 4 u.." & she would automatically climb out of bed with a big smile on her face =) Yet soon, she turned 2yrs & it was decision making time, 2 let her continue 2 school @ Weecare, but without me accompanying her, or 2 change her school 2 somewhere like GUG, which parents can still sit in??? I made a decision 2 send her 2 WeeCare & 4 the 1st few weeks, Kion was crying like crazy all bcos of e fright she had gotten from the holiday programme @ WeeCare, cos holiday programme was generally made up from children of diff age group & Kion, being less than 2yrs & very timid, was crying whenever she saw the older boys shouting & snatching toys from each other.... Till today, teachers had updated me that Kion is still soo timid that she rather let go of the toys she's playing when someone else wants 2 snatch it away from her, then fight back 4 it. It is also cos of her timid character that I had time & again pushed away the tot of changing school 4 her as I'm seriously very worried that new teachers would not know of her character & monitors her with other children....

Initially, I tot that I could just put Kion @ WeeCare till its time 2 attend primary school, but now, after feedback on how poor her chinese is, I am in a decision-making situation again cos @Weecare, there is only mandarin lesson twice a wk, 1 on tuesdays & the other on Thurdays. As Kion doesnt go 2 WeeCare on thursdays, she is only left wif 1 mandarin lesson a/wk.... Yet the other school which I had found, @ BMCK, has 1.5hrs of english & 1.5hrs of mandarin everyday, but with only afternoon slots available..=( HELP!!!! I dont wanna mess up Kion's routine although Kelvin says that Kion can adapt easily 2 the new routine as her nap time has been recently dragged till 3pm by herself....

Haiz.... & then there's Gisele & Kyra, Kion's classmates, whom she had recently grew very attached 2, think as they grow older, they began communicating more & therefore grew more attach 2 one another... I keep explaining 2 Kion that they r gonna change school next yr too & Kion keep insisting on following them 2 the same school......

Anyway, I've got 2 makeup my mind fast cos both schools needs a reply soon...

btw, i was looking thru Kion's past videos & photos, & realized that she had actually grown sooooo much... Sad that she is growing too quickly, how I wish I can slow down the process of her growth. I know Kelvin would definitely say that I'm selfish again if he sees this=p

Gianotti Crosti???

Well, rashes are found on Kion's body again. This time round, the rashes isnt anything like previously, beginning of this year, where she had been diagnosed with "gianotti crosti".

I first discovered the rashes on wednesday afternoon while I was bathing her, it does really seems 2 b itchy, but there seems 2 be rash on every part of her body. I really dread it when she gets this kind of rash symptoms cos I know that it is not gonna b easy 2 get diagnosed.....

Well, I have my reasons 4 saying so. Last yr dec, after coming back from Taiwan, I realized that Kion developed some rash-like symptoms on her arms & decided 2 bring her 2 her PD. PD diagnosed her with eczema, gave Kelvin & I a shock cos both of us had got no skin issues & eczema, although isnt serious, is a life-long skin problem. We did as being told, avoided certain food into her diet, changed her shower foam & put lots of moisturiser on her.... Yet after 1wk, things wasnt getting better & instead the rashes was spreading even more, 2 Kion's stomach & legs, therefore we went back 2 her PD again. By this time, I strongly insist that her PD refer us 2 a skin specialist, but she refused, saying she was sure that its just eczema & we just have 2 keep moisturising her skin.

Another 1wk passed without seeing any improvements, by then, I was beginning 2 suspect if the PD had diagnose her wrongly & therefore brought Kion 2 a Skin specialist. True enough, Kion was being diagnosed with "gianotti crosti", anyway, no specific treatment is needed & it sometimes takes as long as 6months 2 fully recover although a cream mayb prescribe 4 itch, as it can sometimes get quite itchy.

This time round, I somehow felt that the rashes doesnt looks like those she got previously, so I brought her 2 her GP on wed nite. Btw, I stopped bringing Kion 2 her PD after the mis-diagnosed incident cos I felt really pissed off by the PD's confidence???? Of not wanting 2 refer Kion 2 a skin specialist even after repeated consultation with her seems fruitless....

Yet it turned out 2 b disappointing experience once more.... I registered at the counter, 2 b told that it was a locum on duty that nite so I didnt had much choice but secretly thought 2 myself that this locum may b one of those working in the government hospitals, therefore more experienced. WTH, experience my foot, once seated, I told the dr abt Kion's rash, showed him, asked if likely 2 b "gianotti crosti", even spelled out 4 him & he said he never heard of this b4, what is that???

SHIT!!! me, again asked if it might b eczema, chickenpoxes or whatever??? He just said that its too early 2 tell, n at this point of time, he doesnt knows what it is also =( I'm totally pissed off. How could a dr gives such lame reply??? Anyway, Kion & I went home with a bottle of calamine lotion, which I already have at home, & I told myself that if the rash dont subside, I gonna bring her back 2 the skin specialist on monday.

Kion, u r sooooo funny =p

Hehe, I was reading a book about polar bears 2 Kion just before bedtime & one page goes like this

me: polar bears main source of food is seals, but they also eats walrus, reindeers and berries.

Kion (eyes wide opened): Wah, polar bears eat so many things.

Kelvin & I: hahahaaaa.....lol
I was still thinking in my mind whether she understood what I'm reading about cos both walrus & reindeers seems 2 be hugh animals & will Kion believe that polar bears actually eats them....


When it was time 2 sleep, Kion insisted on sleeping on my tummy & after getting herself lying comfortably on me,

Kion: mummy, u got 'meimei' in ur stomach?

Me: no, y? u want 'meimei'?

Kion: no, I dont want. But y ur stomach no 'meimei' still so fat?

Me =x: cos daddy always buy so much food but 4 me 2 eat, makes me fat..

Kion: Daddy, dont always buy so much food & ask mummy 2 eat & eat & eat ok, I dont want my mummy 2 become fat, like got 'meimei' in her stomach like tat.

Again, Kelvin & I went laughing away when we heard what she said =)

Having a child, is indeed the most wonderful gift from Heaven.
I am having the best time of my life, seeing Kion growing day by day.... She surprises me daily with things she does or says and although there r times whereby I felt angry & upset by her actions, the happy times we shares outweighs all the unhappiness.

I remembered telling her one day that Daddy(Kelvin) gave me many presents in my life, but the best present he gave 2 me was actually u(Kion). And 2 my surprised, Kion actually said: Daddy also gives me many presents but the best present I give u ok?

Hehehee... it is small small little things like this that touches me and makes me happy. a conversation like this makes me laugh 2 myself when I think of it, no matter where I may be =)

And now, it seems like the little one has given me a task, 2 lose some weight b4 I really look like I've got 'meimei' in my stomach =p

It's nice 2 meetup with old friends =)

Heheheee... yup, yup, I actually found time 2 meetup with an old friend of mine today, even when Nina is no longer helping me out=p I guess it all depends on how u manages ur time =)

Seriously, time flies damn fast.... b4 I ever knew it, Huimin is already happily married & a mother of 2 =) Yet the memories of me & her, were say 15yrs ago??? with me being a plump gal(I'm still plump now) so maybe I should say, with me being a FAT gal, trying very hard 2 pass my 'NAFA' 1.6km running test, & she, already completed hers, running side by side wif me, encouraging me 2 finish mine without stopping (I wonder if she still remember)....

Hmmm... initially I was a bit nervous b4 meeting cos although we did chat on msm & FB, it is still a fact tat we had lost touch 4 the past 15 yrs.

Luckily things turned out well... She brought Nn along & me, of cos brought Kion along too=) Although I always tot tat I'm a person without much fate with children, I was of cos happy 2 see tat Nn wasn't turned off by me n instead, had cheekily tempted me with stuffs she was holding b4 grabbing them away from me whenever I wanna take them from her =p

Frankly speaking, Huimin hasn't changed much since I last saw her 15yrs back....Anyway, I did enjoyed our dim sum at 'imperial treasure' today, I think they serves the best carrot cake=p

Haiz, the goldfishes r back again.....

YES, Daddy, Kelvin & Kion went 2 one of the fish farm in pasir ris yesterday evening & came back with not only 3 bigger size goldfishes, but also with a est.2ft tank n stand =(((

Ok, its not that I hate keeping fishes, but y find trouble 4 urself when so many attempts 2 keep them alive previously had failed??? & now, with an even bigger tank, dont they knows tat it eats up the space in my living room =(

I know i know, tat 2ft isnt exactly big, but I really wan my house 2 b as spacious as possible, tat's y I even do away with the coffee table. Anyway, I told Kelvin tat if he's really tat interested in rearing fishes, we should get a built-in fish tank 2 the wall, or mayb have the fish tank built-in 2 our divider, think it would look fabulous=)

For the past 2wks, Kion had been enjoying cutting a lot, as long as there r lines drawn on any pieces of paper, b it straight or curve lines, she cuts almost everything up with her pair of small pink scissors & she cuts really well..... & this in turn made the house very messy cos everything when she sleeps, I would clear up all the tiny pieces of paper on the floor, yet everytime she wakes up, she would continue with her cutting spree & she really loves cutting up all papers till they become real tiny. Today my hand fingers got in between the scissor's blade when Kion was abt 2 put down her scissor. Kion, didnt even look 2 see y her scissors couldnt be close together, instead, used more strength 2 squeeze the handles of the scissors 2 close them, cut my fingers... Luckily she doesnt have much strength & the blades werent sharp, but still, I pretended 2 b in pain & guess what, she did quickly let go of the scissor n came straight 2 me 2 check if my fingers were alright but then after checking checking, she merely said "nevermind, nevermind, not painful ok"..... HEhehee.....

Btw, Kion knew how 2 use a new word today=) I told her that she could only watch video in my room every sunday since last week, but she didnt knew what 'every' sundays mean, n actually asked me if she could watch video in my room all the 'sundays'. But just now, b4 gg 2 bed, she actually asked if she could watch video today n I said no,cos today is not 'sunday', she actually said:" I can watch video only on every sunday?" Hehehee, beaming as a proud mummy again=)

Anyway, I realized that for the past 3 days, Kion had been using sentences like " R u happy, mummy", "mummy, y u not happy"(whenever she caught me frowning) "i want 2 make u happy".... So sweet rite, but I'm even sweeter cos everytime she asked me whether I'm happy, I would tell her that Im happy as long as she's happy=p

I really love the process of watching her grow up by my side day by day, but somehow, sometimes I get a little selfish & secretly wishes that she can always stay so small & cute while I always stay so young, so that I can forever look after her, have her by my side, every single day =)

I am really a CHEAPO!!!

Hahahaa... yup, I couldnt agree lesser 2 this self-made statement of being a CHEAPO =) Well, y do I say so??? Cos it has been a few months since I last won something from a lucky draw then last thur after opening the mail box, I realized that I had won a set of 3M organizers, good enough 2 make me happy although I dont even know if I need them....

I wonder if Winnie remembered her frequent supermarket trips with me when she was young? Infact she said something which left a huge impact on me, till today, that I realized my kind of trying 2 be thrifty actions might b wrong....

Think it could have been as long as 10yrs ago, at that time, Mummy was always working late, so Winnie & I were always together, being 15yrs her senior, it seems like it was natural 4 me 2 take good care of her since Mummy wasn't always available. I remembered always bringing Winnie 2 the supermarket 2 buy food 4 our breakfast & household items, she, would always ask 4 yoghurts & Cheese which had nice packaging.... Me, being a mass comm student at that time, strongly felt that paying 4 packaging is a stupid thing 2 do, & would always choose a diff brand, usually the brand which was on promo tat week, so that it would b a good buy=)

This action of mine went on 4 quite awhile, till 1 day, out of no where, Winnie suddenly said:" Jiejie, is it bcos we r quite poor that's y u always ask me 2 buy things that r on offer, cos Cleon(Winnie's friend) dont have 2 do so u know"? Stunned by her words, I remembered trying 2 explain things 2 Winnie, but now, I really cant recall what did I said.

At that point of time, I seriously did did some self reflection as I tot my actions might have caused Winnie 2 feel inferior when with friends & I really didnt want her 2 feel so. I forgotten later on how did I handle the situation, but Y do I say that I'm a CHEAPO, cos till now, I'm still buying alt brand if they r offering a good discount, still checking the total savings on my groceries shopping reciepts & feel real happy if the savings were huge, still filling up & sending out lucky draw coupons in magazines, & b really glad 2 win something, even though sometimes, the prizes won were not used at all, eg: the Nina Ricci perfume I won beginning of this yr, is still not opened, sitting nicely in my bathroom cabinet.

Hahahaa, I know at this point of time, many of my friends would find it unbeliveable, but I'm serious, this is me, and I will always b me, regardless of how comfortably my lifestyle might b now, compared 2 the past. Maybe this is what they mean when pple says a leopard never changes its spot=p

Oh yah, after talking so much abt myself, I almost 4got 2 update the status of Kion's goldfishes... Well, sad 2 say, all 3 of them died as well, 1 after the other, since last wed. The good news is, Kelvin finally agree not 2 buy anymore goldfishes 4 Kion, so both father & daughter can just concentrate on feeding the 9 kois in the water feature at our planter now....

Hmmmm... A little update=)

Slightly less than 3 more months & it's gonna be Kion's birthday again... See how time flies, there seems 2 be more & more strands of white hair growing from my head=(

Quick update, at 33 months, she knows

1)how 2 read books with 1 sentence in every page, but of cos, its thru memorizing & not thru recognizing of words. (I had been bring her to the library every alt week, hoping that it helps her 2 develop an interest in reading as she grow older)

2)understands the concept of 'borrowing' & 'returning' books from the library, & difference between a library & a bookshop.

3)how 2 spell "sweet"... hehehee, of cos its due 2 rewarding her with sweets that she is eager 2 learn 2 spell.

4)how 2 read 1-10 in Mandarin, & simple mandarin words, eg:swing

5)how 2 wear her socks correctly by herself =)(I taught her just once, hehe, so proud of myself=))


Anyway, all of Kion's balloon gold fishes died again, last 1 died on sat morning, so Kelvin went 2 buy another breed of gold fishes home, 3 again, I wonder if this time round, would they survive...

I also met up with the guys from Chong's clinic last nite at Dempsey, at this place called tawandang brewery for dinner, and had quite a nice time. It is always good 2 catch up with old friends, & I hope that I can have the time 2 do so more often in future =p ( Many tks 2 Mummy & Winnie 4 staying over at my place 4 dinner last nite, so that I could go 4 the gathering.)

Deeply Hurt!!! (But maybe its time 2 do some self-reflection)

Yup, just when u think that things r going extremely well now, u suddenly receive a bombshell=( Isn't this kind of scenerio only found in T.V dramas??? Y is it happening 2 me?

Anyway, it all happened yesterday. The day was fun & happy 4 Kion but who would have tot that 20mins b4 leaving, Mummy spoke 2 me & our conversation went like this, Mummy:" Jo, Kion asked if she could stay over 4 the nite cos she said "Grandma, I like my house but sometimes Mummy scold me, she very fierce, I very sad.".... Grandma:" how about ur Daddy?" Kion:" Daddy also fierce, sometimes...".Mummy said that by then, Kion's eyes were all red & fighting back tears. Grandma:" Then y is ur Mummy so fierce 2 u? Y does she want 2 scold u?" Kion:" Grandma, bcos cometimes I very naughty so my Mummy angry..." Of cos, we could all figure out what Grandma replied next.

My heart seemed 2 be pierced by I dunno wat sharp object, but the feeling was really unbearable. Haven't things been really good recently as I no longer threatened 2 buy a cane home except tat I did used a thick wooden stick 2 hit her palm thrice one morning cos she was daring me 2 do it=(

I have even gave up forcing her 2 brush her teeths herself every morning, and had instead been brushing her teeth 4 her every morning once I managed 2 get her in2 the bathroom.... I admit that I do sometimes raise my voice at Kion, especially when she pretend not 2 hear me (mayb cos she's abit more timid, or mayb cos she sees me as her only care-taker, that's y she feels hurt when I raises my voice at her.)

Seriously, I do wonder now if she's feeling hurt or me feeling deeply tramatised by what she told Mummy cos since last nite, I seems 2 b carrying a heavy heart with me, till now, I wonder what is wrong, y does my heart suddenly weigh so much???

Haven't Kion been giving me so many kisses & hugs recently whenever we were together?? & all these while when I tot she had been so happy when we were together, she might not had been at all..... I am seriously doubting my ability 2 be a good mother, it seems like although I have been trying my best 2 use rewards instead of threatening of punishments, adding more "Please" in my speech when asking her 2 do something, swopping all the "can & could" with "will & would", I am still failing....=(((

Arrrgggggg..... Kion, do u know that ur words 2 Grandma had hurt Mummy a great deal??? =(

Hahahaa... Kion's 1st Pet!!!

Hehehee, who would have thought that Kion would have her 1st pet at 32mth old... And, the pet she actually got 4 herself r 3 fat goldfishes=p... Me, 4 one wouldn't had expected as she had never b4 mentioned that she liked fishes (it was puppy all the while which she had been urging us 2 buy).

Anyway, the story goes like this, Kelvin & Daddy brought us 2 a few fish farms again on a sunny saturday afternoon(25th Sept 2010), then at 1 of the fish farm, Rainbow, I think, Winnie saw some, dunno what breed of goldfish & decided that she wanted 2 keep some at her home... Then Kion, being the busybody, realized that her 'ah yi' catching some goldfish home as pet, decided that she too, should get some from the other tank, different breed, as pet....

As the price of the goldfishes there were 3 for $5, both Winnie & Kion each got 3 goldfishes.... & Kelvin bought a small tank specially 4 Kion 2 put her goldfishes in. Actually, the timing seems perfect cos after settling the fishes, I received a email from Teacher Bianca which says that lesson on monday(27th Sept 2010) would be on the pets they have & 2 bring a picture of their pets should they have 1.

Sunday was done with lots of coaxing & explaining 2 Kion just so that she would pose with her new pets 4 me 2 take a picture, for her 2 bring 2 school. By 8pm on sunday, I had had the photos taken, pictures printed out, but who would have expected that when we woke up this morning, 1 of the goldfish was dead=(

Well, at least we still have 2 goldfishes in the tank, & 9 kois in the water feature, previously 6, but due 2 the fish farm trip on sat, 3 more were added...

Yet 2 my dismay, both Father & daughter decided that they needed 1 more goldfish 2 makeup 4 the 1 which had died & happily brought me 2 a fish farm along Jalan Kayu 2 make their purchases today afternoon=(

I am actually dead tired cos this darling daughter of mine had woke up at 6am this morning, but tot I should enter this post so tat if Kion does have a chance 2 read when she grows up, she would at least know the date she 1st kept her own pet & what her pet was...=)

Kion's auntie Nina, is back!!!

Yes, Nina is back!!!! Hmmmm.... I'm kind of in despair, cos my so-called freedom & privacy is gone & I dunno what 2 do=((( Ok ok, I know that its not like Nina is lousy or whatever, but its just that I had never liked having a helper at home, even since young.....

I 4got since when did Mummy started hiring maids , but I knew that I had never liked any of them. the reason was simple: they were always damaging my branded clothes, ruining their colours with I wonder what sort of detergent, & I took months 2 save $$$$ 4 those clothes( mummy & daddy never allowed me 2 buy branded unless I bought them using my own allowance).

Anyway, I think i'm gonna do a transfer 4 her 2 mummy's place asap as I saw her bringing Kion 2 the toilet 2 'pee pee' this morning & worst still,she actually waited 4 Kion throughout the process & wanted 2 help Kion with every step=( But isnt all these done by Kion, herself, when 'Auntie Nina' wasn't here???

I want Kion 2 be independent, so having Nina around is a major obstruction cos Nina wants 2 help Kion in everything & worst of all, /nina doesnt listen 2 me when I gives instructions.... Hmmm, I know I'm a failure when it comes 2 situation like this, dunno whether is it bcos I look 2 young that even my maid doesnt wanna listen 2 my instructions or mayb I'm just not firm enough....

Anyway, Nina is not a lousy helper, she does help me 2 keep my house clean n tidy 24/7, although she is rather slow at work sometimes.....
Hmmm.... looks like I just have 2 give myself some time 2 look at the situation & decide if Nina should b here or transfer 2 Mummy (cos she may not want 2 go 2 Mummy's place too as I can see that she does love Kion a lot too).

A Happy Friday (17-9-2010)!!!

Hmmm.... how should I start???
Just wanted 2 post this particular moment which happened tonight so that I wont forget it even in later part of my life....

Okok, it began in the car, when we were on our way home after dinner & I started rubbing my right eye cos it was suddenly very itchy. Kelvin:" Look Kion, Mummy's eyes r spoilt & she's blind cos she kept rubbing." Kion, turned 2 look at me rubbing my eyes, suddenly bursted out crying with the ice-cream still in her mouth:"Mummy, I dont want u 2 become blind, I love u so much Mummy...".

Oooooh, so sweet rite? Hehehee... I was so touched & quickly conforted her saying that Daddy was just joking & Mummy would never become blind =p
Seriously, my heart melted when I saw her cry, but I was also kind of guilty 2 make her feel so upset =( cos it was actually a fun & happy nite out 4 us.

Anyway, we had dinner at a nearby italian restaurant, named Etna, we had wanted 2 try out the many reataurant nearby the stretch of rd toward our house, 4 quite sometimes, but always had no chance.... There r still many restaurant which I would slowly explore, like the Megumi, Wines on Vines etc etc....

I ordered a grill salmon with prawn & dunno what sauce, Kelvin ordered a crayfish sphagetti,a bottle of house wine, Regalia or what??? & Kion, an over-sized pizza....The food was fantastic, definitely worth going again,even the wine, I usually dont believe in house wines, cos it like cheap wines selling at a high profit, but this one tasted great=) The waiter warned us that reservation is a must if we were going down on a wkend cos it could get quite packed sometimes....

After dinner, we went 2 get some ice-cream at The ice-cream cafe nearby, but the ice-cream there seriously just doesnt taste as good as those at Udders =( After buying ice-cream, we went back 2 the car 2 proceed home & that was when the sweet incident took place=p

Just b4 gg 2 sleep just now, Kion sang "My Family" 2 Kelvin & me but this time round, she sang it like this" This is my father, I call him naughty daddy, this is my mother, I call her good mummy..." Hahahaaa.... such a sweet nite it is for me=)

Or was it the effect of the wine taking place now???? anyway, sweet dreams=)

Day 1 of Term 4

Well, well, well, all have been well, except for the occasionally of having a basket full of un-ironed clothes, I have been able 2 cope well without the help of a maid =)

Of cos I am happy cos it makes me feel much much more useful at home. I know mummy has been complaining abt how silly I am, when I told her that Kelvin & I actually feels better, having more privacy, without Nina at home. I do understand how mummy feels, but its bcos she's working & there is always plenty of household chores 2 be done by her as Daddy & Winnie doesnt help out at home. But 4 me, its different cos I dont have a very active social life & also I'm not working.... therefore, having a tight schedule like this is quite fun 4 me as I get 2 spend more time with Kion, eating with her, prepares her lunch & dinner, then pretend 2 nap with her, and quickly get up to do the housework when she had fallen asleep =)

Anyway, today is the 1st day of school after a one wk break. I was initially worried that Kion might not wanna go 2 school after having so much fun last wk, we went 2 the Zoo, the Bird Park(but didnt went in cos it was raining heavily), Fish farm, & the Barney concert show. Its Kion's first time attending a concert as well=) I hope that after this Barney show, she would b more willing 2 attend other concert show in future cos all these while, she refuses 2 attend any show everytime we want 2 bring her....

Hmmmm.... Nina will b back next wk, then I can have abit of freedom back, but frankly speaking, I'm toying with the idea of not having a maid cos I also feels that Kion seems 2 b more well-behaved without Nina's presence. But I wonder if Kelvin would agree, & without a helper at home
means no more own time 4 things like going 4 pedicures, IPLs, etc etc.=(

Better consider it carefully, anyway, there's still a basket of clothes waiting 4 me....

1st day of the Sept Holidays!

Yipee, today is the 1st day of the sept holidays & we went 2 the Zoo. Think it has been abt more than a year since we last brought Kion 2 the Zoo cos the weather in SG is really too hot, a major reason as 2 y we kept putting off plans to bring Kion there again.

Anyway, I remember that when we first brought Kion to the Zoo, she was probably abt 1yrs old. At that time, she doesn't really noticed the animals there, but this time round, things have changed....

As usual, being the timid girl, she backed out last min when we were in the car, kept refusing 2 go, saying that the tigers & lions were fierce & might eat her up??? Wonder where she got these facts from???

After lots of coaxing & lies told, we finally managed 2 get Kion 2 agree with our plan 2 go to the Zoo & arrived at abt 10am. When we went in the Zoo & Kion saw the animals, I think all fears were gone & I could see that she really enjoyed herself. Poor Kelvin, we rented a trolley/pushcart, to pull Kion in it, but Jolie wanted 2 sit in it too, therefore Kelvin had 2 struggle with pulling 50kg of weight up & down, right & left, for the few hours we spent at the Zoo.

I would have wanted 2 let the kids stay at the Zoo longer if not 4 the fact that Winnie has got tuition at 4pm & the toys rental delivery man said that he would arrive at my place 2 deliver the slide I rented between 3-5pm =( (its my 1st time renting toys, wonder if its good 2 rent? at least when Kion got bored by the toy, I can just return, dont need 2 find space 2 chuck it)

Due 2 time constraint, I couldnt allow Kion 2 go for the horse & elephant rides, but we did saw the elephant's show & took the carousel. No worries, cos I promised her that we would go back to the Zoo very soon 2 complete whatever areas not covered & whatever rides not taken=)
We'll also b going 2 the Bird Park on wednesday=) I seriously have 2 thank Kelvin 4 making time 4 Kion & me.

Btw, Nina left last night. She should have reach her home by now, although I dont no y havent she called 2 inform us that she's safely home=(
Hmmm.... that's how irresponsible they sometimes could b...
Well, I hope she's safe though....

Excited cum nervous =p

Hehe, Nina is going back to Indonesia this sunday, to celebrate Hari Raya with her family. Time flies, coming Jan would be her 3rd yr with us.... All these while she haven't went back even once, I wonder if she misses her family???

I did offer 2 let her go home during Jan this yr, but she refused, saying she would rather stay in SG 2 work.... Anyway, this time round, she'll b going back 4 abt 2wks, N, its time 4 me to PERFORM=)

Hehe, like real.... I just realized that I haven't been picking up the mop 4 the past 3yrs but am wondering how tough can it be right? Haven't I been doing the house-work daily since Primary 6??? Think all should b fine, except that I now have a little Darling 2 occupy my time & I seriously wonder if I can cope???

Not 2 worry, not 2 worry, take this opportunity 2 mayb burn the extra KGs which I had recently put on, also a good chance 4 me to asses my own capability as a SAHM =) I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT!!!

ok, quick update, this mth, Kion seems not so interested in doing painting at the painting stall at Parkway already, mayb she's been doing it too frequently, tat's y lost interest.... She even allowed or I should say WANTED Kelvin 2 complete her last piece of work last Monday at Parkway=(

Kion also started her 1st ballet lesson today, N she seriously looks cute in her ballet attire=) She wasn't afraid & timid like b4, n She did enjoy her lesson ( I didnt even need 2 stay for observation), however, she requested 2b enroll 4 Guitar classes as well=p??? Hmmm....I dont think there's guitar class 4 children this age right, I mean how can they carry the guitar when they r so tiny???

Mixed Feelings =(

Hmmm.... It is so unlike me 2 update my blog so soon, but since am free now, at least I hope Kion doesn't wake up till tml morning cos she had been asleep since 6.30pm(So lucky 2be able 2 watch the YOG table-tennis finale with her sleeping in my arms) of cos, its due 2 the fact that she had missed her afternoon nap=(

Okok. so time 2 annouce the truth, nothing but the truth... I am..... not Pregnant after all=( I wonder y, but I did feel a tiny weeny bit of disappointed when my urine test done yesterday showed a -ve result. Afterall, haven't I, all the while, been against the idea of having a 2nd child??? Maybe during the period where I missed my mense, I had been convincing myself that I had gotten pregnant & also due 2 my recent putting on another 2kg that I wish I was pregnant(at least it gave me an excuse 2 put on weight).
Well, all these r just a fraction of the reason of getting disappointed... I think the real reason of y I'm disappointed was the fact tat I had made Kion tot that there's a baby sister in my tummy & seeing her accepting it, yet realized tat everything was false, is a major upset.

We had a conversation like this today, Me, taking out my U-kimono from my drawer & facing Kion:" I'm gg 2 use my U-kimono later." Kion:"I dont wan Mummy, I dont wan u 2 do it!" Me:" I dont care hor, u dont always stop me from using it ok". Kion:"y? bcos meimei inside ur stomach so must do is it?" Me:" No, cos no meimei in my stomach, tat's y can use!". Kion:" Y no meimei in ur stomach???" Me:" I also dunno Y".

Frankly speaking, from my previous workin experiences, I knew tat urine tests r the most accurate, or I should say earliest form of way 2 detect a pregnancy. Whatever cant b seen thru scan, can b detected thru urine test 2 confirm a pregnancy. Yet due 2 the fact tat my mense had never been consistent, I went back 2 see Dr Kowa today, hoping tat he could tell me that my mense is not here yet cos I am pregnant.
Sad 2 say, this was not so.. in fact Dr kowa didnt even asked me 2 do a urine test after hearing tat I just did 1 yesterday. He even asked if I am still workin, probably thinking tat how could someone who had been workin in an O&G 4 so long b so ignorant & cant even tell if she is pregnant or not...
Well, things wasnt so complicated in the past, but due 2 the fact tat after having Kion, both Kelvin & I tot tat one is enough, therefor I went on the pills. After taking the pills 4 quite some time, I felt tat my weight loss had been in complete failure, therefore decided 2 stop the pills, & only from there did I know how much harm had those tiny little pills did 2 my body. Infact, they made my menses cycle turned into a total mess=(.... (anyway, these few paragraphs belonged 2 the 22th Aug's event, I am late in completing my post again.)

By the way, 2 days ago Kion finally said:" I love u, mummy" to my surprise cos all these while, I'm always the one who says so to her 1st but this time round, she said it willingly by herself, out of no reason...No, no,no, she said it cos of LOVE, the Love she has 4 MUMMY=) Then after the surprise 'I love u' 2 days ago, I got another :"I love u, mummy" from Kion today while I was carrying her at Parkway parade. It happened when Kelvin went 2 unload somethings(should say, Kion's shopping loots, Kion has been buying many things recently) in the car & while waiting 4 him, i carried Kion, walked around when she suddenly used her tiny hands 2 hold my face & look into my eyes while saying 'I love u, Mummy'=)

Hehehee... so sweet, how my heart melted when I heard her said. Haha, I think Kelvin must b jealous, not really jealous,ok, he said he's not jealous after all=( but I think he really hope that Kion would say I love u to him too....

Anyway I am also abit worry about the amt of things Kion buys on shopping trips recently. I wonder if its due 2 the fact tat she is now into another phrase of life, shopping phrase???

The 3 of us went Parkway after Kion's shichida lesson today cos Kelvin & I badly needed a hair-cut as there r plenty of split-ends at the ends of my hair &b4 Kelvin, he just felt tat his hair has grown. I havent been 2 my hair-stylist since CNY cos he's now stationed so far from my new place & also partly cos he permed my hair differently, in fact, I would say, UGLYLY from previous( tat's y I boycott him) so I decided 2 go try out the Supercut in Parkway parade=)

Hehehee, as usual Kelvin goes 2 his $10 hair-cut saloon, while Kion & I went 2 Supercut. I didnt wanted 2 let Kion cut her hair cos I just did a nice job of trimming her fringe yesterday, but she insisted tat she needed 1 so I brought her 2 Supercut & asked her if she wanted 2 cut at Supercut, or the "Children Saloon" few shops away. Of cos she choose the "Children saloon" cos she had been there b4 & for $20, they threw in free balloon & stickers...

After the hair cut, Kelvin bought her a doggy balloon, the one which she wanted when I brought her to Parkway 2days ago, but i didnt buy as I felt tat it was a waste of $( can u imagine a balloon tat cost $13???) Well, as usual, this is not the end. We later when to level 1 & there was a toy fair going on... Kion managed 2 find a pink scooter there & wanted us 2 get it 4 her. Yes, she had all the while wished 4 a pink scooter but I always brushed it off by saying tat we'll get her 1 later on as she havent even mastered the tricycle we bought few mths back(probably our fault cos we seldom bring her 2 the park).

Anyway Kion managed 2 convince us tat the pink scooter was what she had been wishing 4 all along & we, therefore bought it. Later on, Kelvin asked if we should get Yangzhi, Kion's cousin, who is celebrating his Bday this sat, a birthday present & I mentioned books... Kelvin reminded me tat Yangzhi, may not like books, but by then, Kion insisted that she needed some new books for bedtime stories & once again we stormed into 'Borders' 2 get some children bks 4 her.

See, everytime I bring her shopping, she would spend 2 to 3 hundreds of dollars, wah, if I bring her shopping every alternate day, I would b broke very very soon I guess=(
Seriously, I know she isnt 2 blame, how could she understand the value of $ at such young age rite? & if we can afford, shouldn't we give our children the best? I can only hope that we wont spoil her. Its really tough trying 2 be good parents....

Happy Birthday 2 Daddy & Mummy!!!

Hehehee... yup, August is the month I love most cos both Daddy & Mummy's birthday falls on this month =)Daddy's Birthday is on the 13th while Mummy's on the 19th.... To me, it is considered a rare case if we could fall in love with a partner who has the same Birth month as us, as same birth month, usually means same horoscope as well =)

& yes, August might b a unforgettable month later on in my life as I, may b "PREGNANT" okok, so I dunno yet whether issit so but my mense had been late, although I did tested one wk ago & the result was -ve...
Seriously, I dunno if I should b hoping 4 a -ve result or a +ve one.

I asked Kelvin the other day whether he had read my blog & if not, doesnt he feels like reading?? He told me that if writing a blog is like writing a diary, then shouln't it b kept as private????

Yup, writing a diary should b private, that's y I remembered Mummy telling me when I was very very young, not 2 keep a diary, cos ur diary might b the one who betray u 1 day.... but now, as I grow older, I am careful enough, though mayb not, cos i always update my blog on a semi-conscious state (friends who knows me will understand this rite? understand my binge-drinking habit at nite, or is there anyone else who understands me after my one & only best friend past-away=() not 2 state things which I dont want pple 2 know, in my blog...

As my blog is not very up 2 date & consistent, I would cut short of everything & just try 2 summarise Aug's event....

I'll start with yesterday, 21st Aug 2010:

Today is a windy day, just rite 4 us as we were planning 2 go 2 the Fish Farms at "Lim Chu Kang" as Kelvin thinks that we should add 3 more fishes 2 our water feature, & since Daddy is free, he can help us with selecting our fishes(4 those who dont konw, fishes which Kelvin bought, usually doesnt survive more than 3days....) Thank u DaDDY 4 staying over at our place 2 teach me the "sambal hei be hiam" recipe as well as helping us with the purchasing of our fish=)

We managed 2 get our 3 fishes from "Qian Hu" in "Lim Chu Kang", & Kelvin & I even tried the fish spa there. I was a virgin 2 fish spa, but Kelvin had tried iy b4 wif Winnie at Kenko few mths ago... OMG, was it ticklelesh???( how do I spell it?) anyway, Kion burst out in tears when she saw the hugh fishes biting our feets....
Sometimes, i really wonder how could a mischevious gal like her b so timid???

Next would b on 18th Aug: we celebrated Mummy's birthday 1 day earlier as Kion was having Shichida on 19th therefore could go out later on the 18th... We had dinner at "SiChuan Dou Hua" at plaza royal hotel... I remember that when we last went there, Kion was less than 1yrs old... Imagine how fast time flies... We took some pics & video cam moments which Kion had been watching 4 the past few nites=)
Hehehee... at least now I feel that my cam-c order is worth buying=)

Lastly 2 update, would b Daddy's birthday, which is on 13th Aug=)
We brought Daddy 2 "Gim Tim" at Ang Mo Kio 4 dinner & seriously, till today, I still think that their food is values 4 $$$ if not better.
After dinner, we went 2 "Jack's Place", bought a chocolate mouse cake, went back 2 Yishun & cutted the cake. P.s: I think the cake was simply delicious, even Kelvin, who at normal days, turns down cakes. couldn't resist at having a 3rd serving=)
Hehehee....

I hate it when we FIGHT!!!

Yes, it sure sucks when a couple quarrels but in my case, I simply hate quarreling with him to the core....
Why? cos we seldom quarrels as Kelvin usually gives in 2 me, thinking that I'm young & therefore impulsive, or maybe bcos he's always the one doing wrong things, upsetting me......

It all took place at 8am in the morning, Kion:"Mummy, I dont want to go to school"(sobbing in tears). Me:"Be good Kion, time 4 school". Kion:" mummy, I dont want 2 go, I want 2 sleep, I'm so tired". (Daddy, on the bed with us, but no reaction at all) Me:" Kion, u better stop it & get up now", me to Kelvin:" just 1 child & we cant handle, what makes u think we should have another one?" I admit by now my tone was cold & icy as I was by now quite irritated cos things had been like this 4 the past few days=(

Later on after sending Kion 2 school, Kelvin raised his voice a little while talking 2 me... He said that I was throwing all my fustrations 2 him & said that if I didnt want another child, I should just tell him straight in the face. But didnt I already told him a few wks ago that mayb we should just stick 2 one as we seriously or mayb its just me, seriously afraid that I may not be able 2 handle 2.
We quarrelled & I blamed him & cited examples of him not being able 2 discipline Kion, but he simply said that he just doesnt know how 2 and therefore leaves the disciplinary part 2 me. I dont want our children 2 have parents who doesnt take part much in their growing process, that's y I always try not 2 bring my helper along when we goes out as I'm sure that Kelvin would help me whenever Kion needs my help. Yet 2 him, he feels that hiring a helper is 2 make my life easier, therefore we should always bring our helper out with us, so that Kion would have a companion 2 play with, a person 2 feed her,& a person 2 lessen my burden when we r out. But isn't all these the job of a parent???

It is tough when a couple has different views in life, & it is even tougher when he has already lay out his cards & want me 2 agree with him =(((
Life is just so contradicting, initially when we 1st had Kion, we tot that 1 would b enough,& tat we would shower her with all our love & teach & groom her patiently, although non of the both of us r genius... Then when Kion was abt 2yrs old, we observed that she was always looking at other kids who had companion, either brother or sister, 2 play with & we tot that she may like 2 have a sibling as well.... After deciding that we should get her a sibling, we tried 2 introduce the idea 2 her, but she didnt like it at all. Most of my conversation with her goes like this, I said" Kion, do u want mummy 2 give u a sister or brother so that she/he can play with u?" Kion replied" No, I dont want. Sister would take my things & brother would fight with me". After having a few conversation like this, I gave up on the idea of having another baby cos isn't it bcos of her that we planned 2 have a 2nd child? Yet y is it that Kelvin is insisting now that we shouldnt listen 2 her & plainly cos of her views that we abandon the idea of having a 2nd child???

I wonder what would the outcome be? Would Kelvin think back & understand how I'm feeling? Or would I b the one who in the end, give in 2 him??? I do not believe in allowing heaven 2 control my destiny as I think that we r all able 2 decided what we want, 2 say that our life is fated is just an excuse.

Seriously, my heart sank when Kelvin told me that he doesnt knows how 2 discipline his children =(( What makes him think that I knows??? Both of us r 1st time parents, & we r going thru a trial & error state. But it is important that we do not make mistakes this time round cos in front of us lies the fate & future of a life, not just simply a mathemathical qns....
Whatever we do or teach, would mould her into what she becomes in future...

Welcome August, Happy National Day!!!

Yes, we r finally back from Perth....
Infact, we were back on the 3rd aug, but no time to update my blog...
Anyway this blog also very irritating, cos I cant seems to upload photos to every individual post, why is this so huh???

Well, I must say that we did had an enjoyable trip this time round, and surprisingly, this trip was enjoyable because there is no shopping done=)
Hehehee.... even I myself am shocked to realize that I can actually enjoy holidaying without shopping.

Actually, this is also consider as our first trip together as a family, cos previously, we always brought along my mum & sis, or other times, Kelvin's family. I seriously cherished the one week very much & I hope that Kelvin & Kion felt the same.

So here is details of the trip....

Day 1: we arrived at Perth airport at abt 3pm, went to collect our car, then tried figuring out how 2 use the Garmin GPS, as W.A was a really big area, plus the GPS didnt had a POI choice like ours, I was really feeling stressed out till I managed to key in the rd name, 3 brook ellen st or something but 135 brook ellen st came out n we decided 2 select that option. From the GPS, we realized that we needed 2 drive 4 abt 5hrs, therefore decided 2 have a quick bite, which in this case, turned out 2 be KFC, before continuning our journey. Frankly speaking, the KFC in Perth was lousy, or at least, what we have in SG, tastes better.
On the way 2 Gilgara was interesting as we past by lots of farms seeing many cows, sheeps etc.... soon the sky turned dark, in fact the sky turned dark very early as it was winter. This was the moment I began getting nervous, as Kelvin depended on the GPS while I gave the add for the GPS to direct. What if the route which the GPS prompted me to select was wrong? What r we gonna do? And did I menyion that Kion didnt had a nap the whole day as I think she was probably too excited abt the trip.
Anyway, I finally felt a sense of relieve at abt 8.45pm, when I saw a sign which says "Gilgara Retreat". It was also raining like cats & dogs on that night, so when we finally checked in 2 our beautiful garden suite, we seriously didnt had anymore energy to drive out 4 dinner....
Thanks 2 Elaine, the person in charge, for offering us some fresh bread & warm macaroni.
Forgot 2 mention that the Gilgara retreat was really a very beautiful place, I would try to upload some pics. Everything was great, except 4 the fact that Kion couldnt get herself to relax completely & was therefore crying in her sleep every 2hrs, which therefore made me having trouble sleepin as well=(

Day 2: We woke up in the morning, in fact I woke up at 8am in the morning, thinking that it was already 10am, tks 2 the clock in the room, which was set faster than the actual time. We proceeded to the Sunflower farm, which was only 5mins away from Gilgara & was greeted by a fierce white dog, as Kelvin had parked the car at the wrong area(which I think dis-pleased the dog).
Hehe, then the rest of the story was just like what I had predicted, Kion was just too afraid of the hungry animals & insisted on having Kelvin 2 carry her thru out the whole farm trip=( kind of disappointed, cos we tot she would enjoy herself there & even bought a video camera so that we could record her trip, with video of her feeding the animals, having a good time, instead of her being a scary cat, insisting on having her daddy 2 carry her all the way till we left the farm...
We explored the town of M.R in the late afternoon, & Kelvin bought a lamb skin jacket 4 me, which I think was quite costly & not worth buying, as I wont b able 2 wear it in SG, but he seems to like it very much, & seriously, compared 2 my lamb-skin bags, the jacket seems way cheaper...
We had dinner at abt 7pm, at a restaurant called "waves" but by then Kion was already sound asleep, & being me, I savour the opportunity 2 have Kelvin feed me as I was carrying Kion, & cant use my hands=) Hehehee...

Day 3: We checked out of Gilgara & proceeded 2 the yallingup shed as Kelvin really wanted Kion 2 have a look at how sheep shearing was done. Sad 2 say that we only realised that there was no sheep shearing 2 be done on that day, we therefore were instead allowed 2 feed the sheeps with some dried food provided. We left after feeding & proceeded 2 our next stop, which we didnt even know where it was, except that the name of the place was Karri Valley Resort. After a few hrs drive, we finaaly got there....
Like real, in fact we got lost in the woods, & Kelvin was seriously panicking & insisted that we leave the woods 2 ask 4 directions. Thinking back, I was really a "GongGong" who kept insisting that we were driving in the right directions even tho the road was deserted & weird, with not a sign of any vehicles at all.... we even saw wild kangaroos hoping pass.... Thinking back, tk god Kelvin wasn't an impulsive person like me, otherwise, we might have landed ourselves in serious trouble as there was completely no reception in the woods, we wouldn't be able 2 get help should our tyre got flat or if the sky got dark...
We finally arrived at Karri Valley, which actually was in Pemberton, at 4+pm, I admit that I do agree with Kelvin that this place isn't worth going as the travelling distance is way too far... We had our dinner at the only Restaurant there as well & even rented a disc(hotel 4 dogs) to watch in our room (Kion loved the show so much that she kept urging me 2 buy her the disc when we got back).

Day 4: We checked out of Karri Valley & headed down 2 Perth, Sheraton Hotel, which we had booked in advance 4 the last 3 nights....
The journey down was peaceful, & we passed by many small towns on the way... the road in W.A was really shiok, the traffic & cars there just wasn't as heavy as SG. We checked in at abt dunno wat time... then went 2 north bridge 4 dinner at a chinese restaurant, which I cant even recall their name, but they certainly served the best "char siew" I ever tasted.... then went back to the not so impressive 5-star Sheraton, to drink to our cheap toss of red wine b4 heading 2 bed...

Day 5: We went to Leeuwin winery 4 lunch, then the Meyer to shop around, but didnt shop in the end, & was busking around with the pple there....
At night, it was the same, drinking our cheap Pensfold b4 getting to bed=)

Day 6: We went 2 the Caversham wildlife park, which I think Kion really enjoyed, as by now, she had gotten used 2 the kangaroos & was really happy 2 see the Koalas... She even touched the Koalas, which I think is a huge improvement compared 2 Day 2, which she didnt even dare 2 put her feets 2 the ground at the Sunflower Farm.
After Caversham, we went 2 the Chocolate Factory, & Kion, I wonder if its due 2 genetic reasons, loves chocolate JUST SIMPLY AS MUCH AS ME THAT SHE EVEN SACRIFICES naping, just 4 the sake of looking at how chocolates r being mould 2 shapes, of cos, plus free tasting of some ordinary dark chocolates....
We went 2 King's Park after that, & I could tell that Kion was really happy 2 be running around the open space in such cooling weather, although compare 2 M.R. the weather is Perth is definitely not as cooling....
Kion insisted on sitting on the ferry 2 bring us to & fro Point A & B, but once we reached the nearest stop 2 buy a ticket, she fallen asleep...
By then, Kelvin was already craving 4 chines food, so was he glad 2 find a Yong Tau Foo stall, except that we only realized that the shop we tot was a restaurant, was actually a mini-mart, selling frozen yong tau foo food=((( Boy, was he upset....

Anyway, I cant really update abt the rest of the 2days as I've already had this post in my draft 4 more than a wk....
See, this is how inconsistent I can get sometimes, tat's y I hestitated so long 2 start a blog....

Well, 4 a quick & short one, I can only say that things hasn't been good 4 Kion since we came back as she has started crying 4 the past wk whenever I dropped her off "wee care" 4 class, I hope that things would get better next wk as I really dont like 2 force her 2 school & sees her get so upset everything I leave=(

Sad, sad, sad... can anyone advise??? When I try 2 share my worries with Kelvin, he would usually just says that he doesn't knows how 2 handle situations like this, & ask me 2 take charge... but I really dunno what 2 do as well....
We r all first time parents, going thru trials & errors 2 find the perfect solution, yet what is put in front of us, r not simply some mathemathical sums, but is a life, a pure & precious life, which needs guidiance on what is right & wrong..... Whoever they become, would b from whatever we impart....

Perth, Perth, we are coming 2 visit soon!

Perth, Perth, we r coming to visit soon!!!

Yipee, after few weeks of surfing the ieternet, flipping thru magazines, getting info from friends, I have finally settled all the hotels accomodation bookings, the car rental booking with GPS & baby car-seat, and of cos, our itinery =)...

Frankly speaking, I was abit worried initially cos we booked our car from Avis on the internet, but no matter how hard I tried 2 search for an option for me to add on a GPS & baby car-seat, I just couldnt. Luckily I managed to call their office(in dunno where), to get them to arrange for the car-seat & GPS for us.

If everything goes well, our itinery would be like this,

Day 1: reach Perth airport abt 1440, check out, collect car etc etc,
then head down to Gilgara Retreat(as recommended by Mike & Audrey)
for the night, infact 2 nights=)

Day 2: Explore Magaret River, the animal farm, chocolate factory, cheese factory, berry farm(as recommended by Karin) etc etc...

Day 3: Continue exploring Magaret River, then head down 2 Karri Valley Resort(recommended by Peter Teh). Frankly speaking, thru the internet, Karri Valley does looks like a beautiful place, hope I wont be disappionted=p

Day 4: Checkout from Karri Valley & drive back to Perth, planning to reach Perth in the evening, then check-in to Sheraton, infact it would b Sheraton for the last 3 nights.

Day 5: Cavernsham in Perth

Day 6: Fremantle, Swan River & King's Park(provided if time allows us)

Day 7: Checkout from Sheraton, proceed to Perth airport, then back to SG at 9.++pm.(Wonder if anyone would be picking us up=))

Kion has been very excited about this coming trip, kept asking when can she go to Australia, whether can she carry the koalas to sleep & if she could feed the kangaroos. I am of cos glad to see her happy, but those who knows her would know that she is actually very timid so who knows, she might not even dare touch the kangaroos when we reach the farms, hehehee..

Anyway, I would definitly update everyone of the trip when we return.

Actually, there are 2 thing which has been bothering me these 2 wks. One of them is actually Kion's behaviour. She had been pushing me to my limits at dinner time for the past few nights, she wont sit still, insist on walking here & there,then when I raise my voice, she just sit on the floor, burst out crying, pretend to cough out the food in her mouth & I really just dont no how to handle this kind of behaviour. I admit, I did scream at her in the end, cos she really does get on my nerves sometimes.

Okok, I know screaming probably isn't the right way to discipline a child, but what else can I do when no matter how I talk & pacify her, she just cant get her butt glue to her chair and finish her meal. I agree that it might be my fault cos we didnt had a proper dining table when we first shifted in as table & sofa only arrived today... So she, as a child, probably just cant sit & eat on the floor with us without thinking about her toys, as she usually sits & play toys. Anyway, I remembered a tactic "super nanny" used & I'm going to apply it for the next few nights=)

The other thing which I dont feel good about is the swimming pool & Kion's bbehaviour again, when we goes to the pool. Well, as we have a pool just downstairs now, I try to make an effort to bring her down for a swim almost daily, yet everyday b4 we go down, I would warn her not to cry when its time to go home, but everything without fail, she would disappoint me & cry when I ask her to go home=(

I mean whats wrong??? Its not like I only bring her to the pool once in a blue moon, Y does she have to react like that?

Is this the terrible 2 stage??? I tot I had already gone thru this so-called terrible 2 stage when she was abt 23mths, turning 2yr???

Anyway, I hope she will outgrown her bad behaviour soon as it really herts me alot when I sees how she cry everytime I scold her, with tears flowing freely down her cheeks & mucus flowing down her nose.... So sad....

By the way, Kion went to a wedding dinner first time since she was born, & she really enjoyed herself. I think she played too hard that she overslept the next day & skipped school=(. Congrats to Derrick & Regina, may the 2 of u stay as a happy & loving couple always. Attached r pics of the wedding, without the bride & groom....=p

Our Dream come true

Hehe, finally setup my blog today....
Okok, so I know I'm very late 2 start blogging now, especially since darling Kion is already 30mths old(I remember I had wanted 2 start blogging ever since I knew I was pregnant, so that I would not forget about the whole pregnancy process), but its better late than never right???

Its all thanks 2 Ainsley(Huimin), cos was msming with her few weeks ago & telling her that I dont think I could keep up with blogging if I ever started, but she said "even if u give up half-way, at least u still have the bits u had blogged" Her words were so encouraging, or at least it was encouraging 2 me as it gave me the determination 2 start =)

Ok, so we finally moved into our new house on 2nd July 2010, it's like a dream come true for us, or at least for me.... we waited almost 3 years b4 we were able 2 buy a new house.

Not that I didn't like our cosy little old place, I mean it was our first love nest, so how could I not like it right??? I even felt a bit sad when it was time to move out, although I have to agree that having a home where the afternoon sun shines strongly into the master bedroom 24/7 isn't exactly likeable.

Anyway, I decided 2 post this 1st blog with pics of our new place so that I will always remember how beautiful our new house looks in the early days, cos we all knows, as time goes by, we would begin buying more & more things into our house, making this once looking so spacious home to look smaller & smaller, messier & messier...

I know that Kelvin's favourite corner in this house is actually our illegally modified planter turn water-feature, although I do admit that the whole water-feature thing is simply beautiful, I'm also very afraid that our planter may crack due 2 the heavy weight of the water feature. I mean that's what the management said when they disapprove us of setting up the water-feature in our planter. Anyway what done is done, we can only sit & pray that nothing's gonna happen.

I wonder where is Kion's favourite corner in this house as she seems 2 like every inches of the place, from the bathtub in my toilet to her pinky room, oh, and she even like the small toilet in the yard =)

Anyway, my favourite place in this house is our master bedroom=)
the reason is simple, cos the design was choosen by me! Hehe, actually its bcos of the colours combi that makes the room feels cosy, & also bcos of its spaciousness, I mean we managed to put a King's size bed in the room & am still able 2 make space for me to lay my yoga mat on the floor.

Well, whatever it is, I just hope that we would live happily ever after in our Home sweet home =)