Stop at 2?!?! I suddenly feel like having 3 or even 4 =p

Yes, its true, suddenly I feel like having not just 1 more, but 2 or even 3 more kids =)
Ok, I know this is so unlike me, but mayb cos of the events that had happened recently, I find life too fragile, too unpredictable. So if having children r a blessing, I should have as many as possible....

I know Kelvin is getting a bit worried. I told him the other day:"Dear, dont u sometimes feel like even having 1 more is not enough? Cos I sometimes really feels like having more than 2 kiddos."
Kelvin, looked at me in shocked:" I only want to let Kion have a sibling, 1 more is enough."

Ask me, at the age of 28, when is my happiest moment & I would answer without any doubts that it is NOW, it has got to b NOW!!! Being a mother is my calling, I may not b a perfect Mum or Wife, but I try my best 2 give my best & now is now, I have never felt my life being more fulfilling than now although I have unfinished household chores everyday, things which I planned to do but not done in mind for months, I really love every seconds n mins of my life now & I strive to do better everyday.

Sometimes I ask myself, Y did I only realized what I wanted after so long??? Had I realized earlier, things might have been different....
There r many things in life which r not up to us to decide, but those which I have choices, I'm not gonna live it up to fate. I will work hard to plan my own destiny =)

I am feeling very very very very very SAD!!!!

Arrghh!!! Feeling emotionally very sad since yesterday.... Firstly it was bcos I heard a friend's friend passed away, leaving behind her husband & a 2yrs old daughter, secondly, I read the blog Ainsley told me to read about, ourfeistyprincess...

After being a mother, I can relate better to other mothers & this makes me very very sad when I read or hear about the tragedies that had happened. Since yesterday, I had been crying every now & then, infront of the computer, in the bathroom, in the living room etc etc. Everytime I thought of the things little Charmaine & her mummy had gone thru, I feel very pain, really very very pain.... Y is life so harsh on Charmaine's mummy? All she ever wanted, or isn;t it just what every parents wanted, to have a healthy child.

I remembered when I was pregnant, I told myself, I wanted a daughter, I dont want a son!!! Subsequently when I knew that I was indeed carrying a daughter, I was overjoyed =) It was from there then I started hoping that my baby would b strong & healthy, cos what can b more important than to have a healthy baby. Although if she pretty & cute, would b an added bonus =p

Anyway, come to think of it, I was silly & ignorant. How important could the sex of the baby b? Isnt it more important to have a strong & healthy baby? Yes, I know I shouldnt had thought that way cos it is already a blessing to b able to have children, so whatever sex my child is, I should thank God.

But where is GOD? When reading Charmaine's case, it made people like me, who all the while, doesnt have a religion, began doubting all Gods. My mother is a buddhist or mayb taoist, she prays to every gods, & always tells me that it is ok to believe in whichever Gods I want cos all Gods wants people to do good. I remember attending a christian childcare centre when I was young. Everyday B4 breakfast, b4 lunch, & b4 teabreak, we would sing:

Thank u God for world so sweet
thank u God for food we eat
thank u God for birds that sings
thank u God for everything
Amen.

My principal loved me a lot, always read bible stories to me, telling me how great God is, telling me how much Jesus loves us & how he protects us etc etc.

Yet what did Charmaine did to have to suffer like that? she was only 4yrs old when she was first diagnosed with cancer. Y didnt God helped her? Doesn't he knows that the poor girl was suffering & her mummy was very very sad???

I didnt read the whole blog, but it was good enough to make me reflect on my own life. Yesterday, when Kion woke up from her nap, I hugged her tightly. I hugged & kissed her so many times cos I was so afraid to lose her. Suddenly, everything else seems very unimportant, education & stuffs seems useless & worthless. I tell myself, the most important thing in my life now, is to spend quality time & to cherish the people ard me. It is of cos very sad that we needed to look at others tragedies to reflect on our own lives....

Since yesterday, I decided to do a self reflection every day on my daily activities which main purpose is to make sure I do not lose temper towards Kion, Kelvin & My mummy cos they r the most important people in my life & I want to cherish every moments I have with them. =)

Addition & Subtraction

Wah, after today I can finally confirm that I have successfully taught Kion to do & understand simply addition & subtraction :)
Isn't it amazing??? I mean I know nowadays it's not uncommon for children her age to knows addition, subtraction, division & even multiplication (I believe some of Kion's Shichida classmates r able to) yet come to think about it, she is only 3yrs old...

Come on, ask yourself, at what age did u learn your plus & minus? I am very certain I didn't masters these skills at the age of 3. Therefore am also very proud n happy that Kion can, at 3yrs, understands the concept of addition & subtraction.
Dear Kion, what u do not know that is that although mummy is so happy now, multiplication & division may b coming in soon :p

Actually no lah, think I'll wait for awhile more b4 I introduce her to that cos teaching her is seriously no joke....
It is actually very rewarding to see your child understanding your teachings but... I need a short break, teaching children this age, is really not easy :p

Children's Day this year.....

Yes!!! Its the month of October, Happy Childrens' Day =)
Children's Day this year was Super FUN!!! It was packed with meaningful activities for Kion =) Well, & of cos tiring activities (cleaning up etc) 4 me =p

Quick update, as Childrens' Day this yr is officially changed 2 the 1st Friday of Oct, therefore Kion enjoyed 2 fridays of activities =)

The first one was to get her to buy her own train ticket n travel in the MRT to n fro simei & Changi Airport. That was a breeze n she told me she enjoyed herself.

2nd activity was to bake her own brownies to contribute to her school's children's day party & it was the most difficult task as the baking time was long, and it has to look good in order for the kids to b interested in eating. At last, I got her to decorate her own cake box for the brownies as well and luckily the brownies turned out amazinly yummy, with Auntie YT being a big fan of it. Of cos, this was also one of the most tedioust one, leaving me with tons of washing up =(
But it was all worth it, seeing how happy n proud she was, helping her displayed her strength, what more would a Mummy want =)

Today is 7th Oct 2011, Children's Day! We spent this morning with G & family at the Gallop stable. There Kion rode a pony. She was so happy =)
"Mummy, can we go & ride a pony again?"
Sure, I promise I will bring you there again soon =)