Gianotti Crosti???

Well, rashes are found on Kion's body again. This time round, the rashes isnt anything like previously, beginning of this year, where she had been diagnosed with "gianotti crosti".

I first discovered the rashes on wednesday afternoon while I was bathing her, it does really seems 2 b itchy, but there seems 2 be rash on every part of her body. I really dread it when she gets this kind of rash symptoms cos I know that it is not gonna b easy 2 get diagnosed.....

Well, I have my reasons 4 saying so. Last yr dec, after coming back from Taiwan, I realized that Kion developed some rash-like symptoms on her arms & decided 2 bring her 2 her PD. PD diagnosed her with eczema, gave Kelvin & I a shock cos both of us had got no skin issues & eczema, although isnt serious, is a life-long skin problem. We did as being told, avoided certain food into her diet, changed her shower foam & put lots of moisturiser on her.... Yet after 1wk, things wasnt getting better & instead the rashes was spreading even more, 2 Kion's stomach & legs, therefore we went back 2 her PD again. By this time, I strongly insist that her PD refer us 2 a skin specialist, but she refused, saying she was sure that its just eczema & we just have 2 keep moisturising her skin.

Another 1wk passed without seeing any improvements, by then, I was beginning 2 suspect if the PD had diagnose her wrongly & therefore brought Kion 2 a Skin specialist. True enough, Kion was being diagnosed with "gianotti crosti", anyway, no specific treatment is needed & it sometimes takes as long as 6months 2 fully recover although a cream mayb prescribe 4 itch, as it can sometimes get quite itchy.

This time round, I somehow felt that the rashes doesnt looks like those she got previously, so I brought her 2 her GP on wed nite. Btw, I stopped bringing Kion 2 her PD after the mis-diagnosed incident cos I felt really pissed off by the PD's confidence???? Of not wanting 2 refer Kion 2 a skin specialist even after repeated consultation with her seems fruitless....

Yet it turned out 2 b disappointing experience once more.... I registered at the counter, 2 b told that it was a locum on duty that nite so I didnt had much choice but secretly thought 2 myself that this locum may b one of those working in the government hospitals, therefore more experienced. WTH, experience my foot, once seated, I told the dr abt Kion's rash, showed him, asked if likely 2 b "gianotti crosti", even spelled out 4 him & he said he never heard of this b4, what is that???

SHIT!!! me, again asked if it might b eczema, chickenpoxes or whatever??? He just said that its too early 2 tell, n at this point of time, he doesnt knows what it is also =( I'm totally pissed off. How could a dr gives such lame reply??? Anyway, Kion & I went home with a bottle of calamine lotion, which I already have at home, & I told myself that if the rash dont subside, I gonna bring her back 2 the skin specialist on monday.

Kion, u r sooooo funny =p

Hehe, I was reading a book about polar bears 2 Kion just before bedtime & one page goes like this

me: polar bears main source of food is seals, but they also eats walrus, reindeers and berries.

Kion (eyes wide opened): Wah, polar bears eat so many things.

Kelvin & I: hahahaaaa.....lol
I was still thinking in my mind whether she understood what I'm reading about cos both walrus & reindeers seems 2 be hugh animals & will Kion believe that polar bears actually eats them....


When it was time 2 sleep, Kion insisted on sleeping on my tummy & after getting herself lying comfortably on me,

Kion: mummy, u got 'meimei' in ur stomach?

Me: no, y? u want 'meimei'?

Kion: no, I dont want. But y ur stomach no 'meimei' still so fat?

Me =x: cos daddy always buy so much food but 4 me 2 eat, makes me fat..

Kion: Daddy, dont always buy so much food & ask mummy 2 eat & eat & eat ok, I dont want my mummy 2 become fat, like got 'meimei' in her stomach like tat.

Again, Kelvin & I went laughing away when we heard what she said =)

Having a child, is indeed the most wonderful gift from Heaven.
I am having the best time of my life, seeing Kion growing day by day.... She surprises me daily with things she does or says and although there r times whereby I felt angry & upset by her actions, the happy times we shares outweighs all the unhappiness.

I remembered telling her one day that Daddy(Kelvin) gave me many presents in my life, but the best present he gave 2 me was actually u(Kion). And 2 my surprised, Kion actually said: Daddy also gives me many presents but the best present I give u ok?

Hehehee... it is small small little things like this that touches me and makes me happy. a conversation like this makes me laugh 2 myself when I think of it, no matter where I may be =)

And now, it seems like the little one has given me a task, 2 lose some weight b4 I really look like I've got 'meimei' in my stomach =p

It's nice 2 meetup with old friends =)

Heheheee... yup, yup, I actually found time 2 meetup with an old friend of mine today, even when Nina is no longer helping me out=p I guess it all depends on how u manages ur time =)

Seriously, time flies damn fast.... b4 I ever knew it, Huimin is already happily married & a mother of 2 =) Yet the memories of me & her, were say 15yrs ago??? with me being a plump gal(I'm still plump now) so maybe I should say, with me being a FAT gal, trying very hard 2 pass my 'NAFA' 1.6km running test, & she, already completed hers, running side by side wif me, encouraging me 2 finish mine without stopping (I wonder if she still remember)....

Hmmm... initially I was a bit nervous b4 meeting cos although we did chat on msm & FB, it is still a fact tat we had lost touch 4 the past 15 yrs.

Luckily things turned out well... She brought Nn along & me, of cos brought Kion along too=) Although I always tot tat I'm a person without much fate with children, I was of cos happy 2 see tat Nn wasn't turned off by me n instead, had cheekily tempted me with stuffs she was holding b4 grabbing them away from me whenever I wanna take them from her =p

Frankly speaking, Huimin hasn't changed much since I last saw her 15yrs back....Anyway, I did enjoyed our dim sum at 'imperial treasure' today, I think they serves the best carrot cake=p

Haiz, the goldfishes r back again.....

YES, Daddy, Kelvin & Kion went 2 one of the fish farm in pasir ris yesterday evening & came back with not only 3 bigger size goldfishes, but also with a est.2ft tank n stand =(((

Ok, its not that I hate keeping fishes, but y find trouble 4 urself when so many attempts 2 keep them alive previously had failed??? & now, with an even bigger tank, dont they knows tat it eats up the space in my living room =(

I know i know, tat 2ft isnt exactly big, but I really wan my house 2 b as spacious as possible, tat's y I even do away with the coffee table. Anyway, I told Kelvin tat if he's really tat interested in rearing fishes, we should get a built-in fish tank 2 the wall, or mayb have the fish tank built-in 2 our divider, think it would look fabulous=)

For the past 2wks, Kion had been enjoying cutting a lot, as long as there r lines drawn on any pieces of paper, b it straight or curve lines, she cuts almost everything up with her pair of small pink scissors & she cuts really well..... & this in turn made the house very messy cos everything when she sleeps, I would clear up all the tiny pieces of paper on the floor, yet everytime she wakes up, she would continue with her cutting spree & she really loves cutting up all papers till they become real tiny. Today my hand fingers got in between the scissor's blade when Kion was abt 2 put down her scissor. Kion, didnt even look 2 see y her scissors couldnt be close together, instead, used more strength 2 squeeze the handles of the scissors 2 close them, cut my fingers... Luckily she doesnt have much strength & the blades werent sharp, but still, I pretended 2 b in pain & guess what, she did quickly let go of the scissor n came straight 2 me 2 check if my fingers were alright but then after checking checking, she merely said "nevermind, nevermind, not painful ok"..... HEhehee.....

Btw, Kion knew how 2 use a new word today=) I told her that she could only watch video in my room every sunday since last week, but she didnt knew what 'every' sundays mean, n actually asked me if she could watch video in my room all the 'sundays'. But just now, b4 gg 2 bed, she actually asked if she could watch video today n I said no,cos today is not 'sunday', she actually said:" I can watch video only on every sunday?" Hehehee, beaming as a proud mummy again=)

Anyway, I realized that for the past 3 days, Kion had been using sentences like " R u happy, mummy", "mummy, y u not happy"(whenever she caught me frowning) "i want 2 make u happy".... So sweet rite, but I'm even sweeter cos everytime she asked me whether I'm happy, I would tell her that Im happy as long as she's happy=p

I really love the process of watching her grow up by my side day by day, but somehow, sometimes I get a little selfish & secretly wishes that she can always stay so small & cute while I always stay so young, so that I can forever look after her, have her by my side, every single day =)

I am really a CHEAPO!!!

Hahahaa... yup, I couldnt agree lesser 2 this self-made statement of being a CHEAPO =) Well, y do I say so??? Cos it has been a few months since I last won something from a lucky draw then last thur after opening the mail box, I realized that I had won a set of 3M organizers, good enough 2 make me happy although I dont even know if I need them....

I wonder if Winnie remembered her frequent supermarket trips with me when she was young? Infact she said something which left a huge impact on me, till today, that I realized my kind of trying 2 be thrifty actions might b wrong....

Think it could have been as long as 10yrs ago, at that time, Mummy was always working late, so Winnie & I were always together, being 15yrs her senior, it seems like it was natural 4 me 2 take good care of her since Mummy wasn't always available. I remembered always bringing Winnie 2 the supermarket 2 buy food 4 our breakfast & household items, she, would always ask 4 yoghurts & Cheese which had nice packaging.... Me, being a mass comm student at that time, strongly felt that paying 4 packaging is a stupid thing 2 do, & would always choose a diff brand, usually the brand which was on promo tat week, so that it would b a good buy=)

This action of mine went on 4 quite awhile, till 1 day, out of no where, Winnie suddenly said:" Jiejie, is it bcos we r quite poor that's y u always ask me 2 buy things that r on offer, cos Cleon(Winnie's friend) dont have 2 do so u know"? Stunned by her words, I remembered trying 2 explain things 2 Winnie, but now, I really cant recall what did I said.

At that point of time, I seriously did did some self reflection as I tot my actions might have caused Winnie 2 feel inferior when with friends & I really didnt want her 2 feel so. I forgotten later on how did I handle the situation, but Y do I say that I'm a CHEAPO, cos till now, I'm still buying alt brand if they r offering a good discount, still checking the total savings on my groceries shopping reciepts & feel real happy if the savings were huge, still filling up & sending out lucky draw coupons in magazines, & b really glad 2 win something, even though sometimes, the prizes won were not used at all, eg: the Nina Ricci perfume I won beginning of this yr, is still not opened, sitting nicely in my bathroom cabinet.

Hahahaa, I know at this point of time, many of my friends would find it unbeliveable, but I'm serious, this is me, and I will always b me, regardless of how comfortably my lifestyle might b now, compared 2 the past. Maybe this is what they mean when pple says a leopard never changes its spot=p

Oh yah, after talking so much abt myself, I almost 4got 2 update the status of Kion's goldfishes... Well, sad 2 say, all 3 of them died as well, 1 after the other, since last wed. The good news is, Kelvin finally agree not 2 buy anymore goldfishes 4 Kion, so both father & daughter can just concentrate on feeding the 9 kois in the water feature at our planter now....

Hmmmm... A little update=)

Slightly less than 3 more months & it's gonna be Kion's birthday again... See how time flies, there seems 2 be more & more strands of white hair growing from my head=(

Quick update, at 33 months, she knows

1)how 2 read books with 1 sentence in every page, but of cos, its thru memorizing & not thru recognizing of words. (I had been bring her to the library every alt week, hoping that it helps her 2 develop an interest in reading as she grow older)

2)understands the concept of 'borrowing' & 'returning' books from the library, & difference between a library & a bookshop.

3)how 2 spell "sweet"... hehehee, of cos its due 2 rewarding her with sweets that she is eager 2 learn 2 spell.

4)how 2 read 1-10 in Mandarin, & simple mandarin words, eg:swing

5)how 2 wear her socks correctly by herself =)(I taught her just once, hehe, so proud of myself=))


Anyway, all of Kion's balloon gold fishes died again, last 1 died on sat morning, so Kelvin went 2 buy another breed of gold fishes home, 3 again, I wonder if this time round, would they survive...

I also met up with the guys from Chong's clinic last nite at Dempsey, at this place called tawandang brewery for dinner, and had quite a nice time. It is always good 2 catch up with old friends, & I hope that I can have the time 2 do so more often in future =p ( Many tks 2 Mummy & Winnie 4 staying over at my place 4 dinner last nite, so that I could go 4 the gathering.)

Deeply Hurt!!! (But maybe its time 2 do some self-reflection)

Yup, just when u think that things r going extremely well now, u suddenly receive a bombshell=( Isn't this kind of scenerio only found in T.V dramas??? Y is it happening 2 me?

Anyway, it all happened yesterday. The day was fun & happy 4 Kion but who would have tot that 20mins b4 leaving, Mummy spoke 2 me & our conversation went like this, Mummy:" Jo, Kion asked if she could stay over 4 the nite cos she said "Grandma, I like my house but sometimes Mummy scold me, she very fierce, I very sad.".... Grandma:" how about ur Daddy?" Kion:" Daddy also fierce, sometimes...".Mummy said that by then, Kion's eyes were all red & fighting back tears. Grandma:" Then y is ur Mummy so fierce 2 u? Y does she want 2 scold u?" Kion:" Grandma, bcos cometimes I very naughty so my Mummy angry..." Of cos, we could all figure out what Grandma replied next.

My heart seemed 2 be pierced by I dunno wat sharp object, but the feeling was really unbearable. Haven't things been really good recently as I no longer threatened 2 buy a cane home except tat I did used a thick wooden stick 2 hit her palm thrice one morning cos she was daring me 2 do it=(

I have even gave up forcing her 2 brush her teeths herself every morning, and had instead been brushing her teeth 4 her every morning once I managed 2 get her in2 the bathroom.... I admit that I do sometimes raise my voice at Kion, especially when she pretend not 2 hear me (mayb cos she's abit more timid, or mayb cos she sees me as her only care-taker, that's y she feels hurt when I raises my voice at her.)

Seriously, I do wonder now if she's feeling hurt or me feeling deeply tramatised by what she told Mummy cos since last nite, I seems 2 b carrying a heavy heart with me, till now, I wonder what is wrong, y does my heart suddenly weigh so much???

Haven't Kion been giving me so many kisses & hugs recently whenever we were together?? & all these while when I tot she had been so happy when we were together, she might not had been at all..... I am seriously doubting my ability 2 be a good mother, it seems like although I have been trying my best 2 use rewards instead of threatening of punishments, adding more "Please" in my speech when asking her 2 do something, swopping all the "can & could" with "will & would", I am still failing....=(((

Arrrgggggg..... Kion, do u know that ur words 2 Grandma had hurt Mummy a great deal??? =(