Today she called me a BAD mummy all for the sake of a marshmellow =( Actually I just asked her 2 choose between a biscuit & a marshmellow instead of both junk food & she said: u r a BAD mummy, dont let me eat both!!!
Frankly speaking, I felt really sad cos the fact that she banged her nose straight into the floor & bled yesterday, already made me felt very useless, very incapable & then today, she have to hurt me like this.
Yet instead of giving in to her request of eating both her JUNKS, I lashed out at her. told her she could jolly well walk out of the house & go search for her "good" mummy if I am not good enough 4 her. Think I scared her. She started crying, told me she was sorry 4 upsetting me & that she dont mean it.
Seriously, I also wanna b a good mummy!!! Who dont want??? But whats the defination of being a good mummy?!?!
I remember when Kion was younger, family members like her 'kuku' liked asking her if she love daddy or mummy more. The 1st time I heard them asked, I was panicky. Worried that the ans might b Daddy. But she always ans them: both, Daddy & mummy.
If anyone tells me cos she's smart, thats a politically rite ans, I wont believe & I would say that this person doesnt have a child cos when this qns was 1st posed to her, she was less than 2yrs old. A less than 2yrs old child will not know what is a politically correct ans.
Anyway, at that time, I was always happy with her ans. Nowadays, I somehow feels that 1 day, the ans to this qns will b narrowed down to: Daddy....
Cos everything that she wants, mummy will say: NO!!!
Soon she will feel that mummy is no fun, mayb even a hindrance =p
Of cos, I can only hope for the better, learn to let go n pull back when needed.... But life, it's always easier said than done =p
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